Cosmic Consciousness

[tinkerjack]

Buck posited the theory that the difference between the spiritual experience and the psychotic one was determined by mental fortitude

http://www.lightparty.com/Spirituality/ ... ality.html

[jimboloco]

fortified with ale and pot, maybe something more powerful
but never to the dark side, old friend

I've looked back on some of my most terrified moments as spiritual epiphanies.

Ever been so terrified that just being-feeling safe was your only concern? And once that safety was attained, the feeling of true humility and gratitude for just being was so overwheling, humble gratitude.

And then you moved back out of the safety zone again and were petrified again and yet you became exonerated after all, looking back, being here now.

[stilltrucking]

I don't know why I posted that, I have no idea where that link came from. I think I must be losing my mind. Or maybe I am having a spiritual experience.


I was probably thinking about a friend I used to have.
He used to say things like "the Hindus built the temple but the Jews wired it for sound" Then he would stop taking his lithium and check into the Phipps clinic at JHU in baltimore for a few weeks. Went to visit him once. Strange place. Long hallway of locked doors with little windows.

Darkside? Just all back in childhood. A basement that smelled like dead rats. A trap door with an iron ring for a handle. When it was open it looked like a grave. My dad knew how to scare the bejeezus out of me. Locked down there for hours, I wish he had just beat the hell out of me. But he was big on psychological punishments. Did I tell you Homeboy treated some of the returning POW's when he was a flight surgeon. He was inspired to take up pyschiatry by their stories of survival. I think our dad might have been an influence too. Believe it or not I think I had a happy childhood. Because of my siblings

me with the two buttons on my shirt.


meanwhile

visions of a beach
watched Hunt For Red October last night,
great line at the end

And the sea shall grant all men new hope,
as sleep brings dreams of home. - Christopher Columbus

I am a coward, a few times in my life I may have done something heroic. But those times it was as if I was watching myself do it. As if someone else was in control.

Within darkness there is light, but do not look for that light. Within light there is darkness, but do not try to understand that darkness." These are concepts that are hard to understand, but that can be experienced once the mind stops moving.

http://www.mro.org/zmm/dharmateachings/ ... isho20.htm

[jimboloco]

mountains and rivers
dry wash arroyos
flashflood

[jimboloco]

reading occasionally thoughts without a thinker"
stuck in the hell realm
but even there is a little bodhisattva floating

[stilltrucking]

writing occasional thoughts with out a thinker
in all my childhood no adult in my family ever told me about heaven or hell. Dead was dead. Life has been good to me so far. Meanwhile I was looking about a post of yours about the Diluad Pump.

There was a post on Culture about women as being more in touch with the spiritual than men. I suppose that is what attracted me to those Quaker babes. The calm steady look in their eyes. Not many religions co founded by a woman. But of course I am no better a Friend than I was a Jew.

Speaking about women as spiritual beings, spiderwoman like an angel to me. She had her jolly little fat Buddha statue and she had laid her head upon her saviors breast. She showed me the way. I caused her such pain and suffering with my careless love, and all she gave me in return was love and forgiveness.
She believed in reincarnation. She said it was a comfort to her. I don't really want no truck with it myself. But I never said that to her. I never lied to her either. Who knows? If I knew more about the Tao of Quantum physics and how wave forms collapse maybe I could rationalize it.

I am one stupid mutha fukker jimbo. Don't take this to heart. I would like to think we have a choice about what happens to us after we depart this life. I been finding a lot of comfort in a book by the Dalai Lama and an American Pyschiatrist. I read a couple pages now and then, I am such a slow reader. But I think I should strart reading a little faster.

[jimboloco]

try a little kinky friedman, mon

he has this character in his book that gets mysteriously wasted
his name is robert mclane

bob is friends with kinky and i knew him in spitsport LA

a cameo appearance by a friend