stop drinking

[abcrystcats]

I have enough money--money is not it for me--I hate money and the systems it has buildttt in human society and phycy--pisses the fuck out of me--What I posted this for is just to not feel alone and dead---so thanks al;ot to everyone of you---really--thanks...

"What I posted this for is just not to feel alone and dead"

Hmmm. Seems to me that feeling "alone and dead" is a major motivation for drinking heavily.

It isn't lack of money.

Geez. I was worried about that for a while, but it seems that I automatically attract MONEY. Crap. My neighbor accused me last night of not writing her renter's insurance. That's $25 to me. I only didn't write it because they have nothing to insure and I didn't want to waste her good money. She wants me to waste her good money. OK.

But .... I don't give a good god darn about MONEY. I feel alone and dead. I drink. And drink and drink. Please, let me die if allI attract is money.

What does that mean?

Feeling "alone and dead" -- that's the best reason for drinking yourself to death that I know of.

Sorry. I know this isn't much help.

[stilltrucking]

Sorry. I know this isn't much help.

I don't know it sure helped me cat.

alone and dead

I wonder was that an after edit Geoff, don't know how I missed that.

I don't worry about being an alcoholic. My heart goes out to those that are. Not many are as fortunate as the Sober Duck.

I don't drink that much. But it is nice once in a while. I like a shot. I sometimes feel like a ghost, but a very lively ghost. But that ain't why I drink. It is a mellow feeling for me. I like it better than pot in my old age. Strong drink for those about to perish the bible says. that's me, not feeling dead at all, never loved life more.