Fuck if I know anything.......

[hester_prynne]

Hello my dears.

I"ve been around readin you, looking at you, but I just haven't had any words come up, my mind seems to have been stripped of all desire to share myself anywhere.........

Really, I don't know a damn thing outside of what my vacumn of existence has become, which hopefully is pointed in the direction of doing the "right thing", in as much as I can even understand that anymore.......

I work constantly to house and feed, raise and clothe my daughter, and when I'm not working I am hellbent on escape from the current and terrifying "reality" of existence.
Puff Puff, sing.
Puff Puff, listen.......
(I'm working on singlehandedly reaping a yarn size ball of hemp outta bud. It's my new creative project.)

Heh


I do feel huge satisfaction in taking care of the elderly and I wish I were rich so I could just do it for the love of it, and not have to deal with the entities in control, who have no interest in the field except for their own overblown security, i.e. six figure salaries for picking cronies and n'er do wells and then cleaning up the resultant messes, hiding their own incompetence behind other's.
It's an all consuming drag, but everyone's doin it right!
Majority rules!
I've learned to strive to keep my abilities toned down at work, seems to keep everyone happy and comfy when I keep my observations to myself....

Seriously, if I didnt' have this job I'd be total loser on the street. I totally understand this terrorism now and I totally fear it too......

Yes sir, of course ma'am, whatever you say......


I've missed it here.
Empty as I feel, I have really missed it here, missed having the will, the energy, the desire to participate. Seems like one day, I just got deflated in general........

How are youse?
File me a report of yourselves and what you are up to?

H

[stilltrucking]

The hotest babe here showed up on her mototor cycle, (a little electric job, more like a motor bike) a tall willowy gray haired hotie, I liked the cut of her long skirt. One is circling me like a horny tigeress, so far I have been able to out run her, my walker has wheels, her's don't. SHe is my payback for all the young women I hit on at litkicks.

Work is kool as it can get for me. I work at home selling office supplies over the phone. I Keep my own hours, got a nice big window to look out of while I work. Looking through the garden at a big old live oak tree. I watch a world unfold in its branches, busy birds and squirills come and go.

I been writing (well I been typing) and that is almost as good as fuking for me. Rode my motor cycle today. I felt like an out law biker cause I still don't have the license yet.

Artman posted a haiku
so I got that to look forward to too
Creative been jumping
Been a thrill keeping up with that

Life has been good to me
so far.

and that is the way it is for now.

I been thinking about starting a church call it "It beats me too" The first church of darned if I know.

[mnaz]

We missed you around here, Hesty.... No foolin'! It's good to hear from you again.... Please drop us a verse now and then...

Me? I'm back in the great N-W for awhile-- got a job now and the whole regular deal. It isn't bad, really-- I'm filthy-rich with quiet horizons, and I really can't take any particular form of structured noise, productive or otherwise, too seriously from now on. Funny, that....

[Artguy]

Well it's a holly day around here...celbratin ol Queen Vic...so I spent the morning at my studio paint ing a portrait of ol Pablo Picasso....workin on a series of pics of artists of 20 th century that gave me this kick....started with Frida khalo...see post on artsy page...

yer livin large Hes...

[Arcadia]

"(I'm working on singlehandedly reaping a yarn size ball of hemp outta bud. It's my new creative project.) " wow... I don't understand what you said but it sounds as a complex thing...!

Nice to hear about you, I miss your songs!

At this moment I'm preparing with the fifth and second grade kids the May Revolution Acto...and in one of its parts there is a manifestation in the Plaza de Mayo...the rats at school are gone... we didn't find cadaveres... I have to finish the libretas for tomorow...I have to prepare something like a class about sor Juana Ines de la Cruz, Becquer and Dario for a 18 years old kid who have to take a literature exam...the family is ok, my sobrina started to eat zapallo last week..my Utah cousin will visit us this weekend again... a dear friend got a job... I ate yesterday with friends an asado by the river... mmm... nothing more, I guess.

[stilltrucking]

The B side

Old people old dogs

She calls me Mr. Jack, I call her Miss Polly

Paramedics been here twice in the past couple weeks

She forgets her meds, and then she takes too many.

Her hair is dyed a metalic red, her scalp shows through

Her dog will be 15 years old in August.

She knocks on my door, she don't feel too good. I escort her home. Small frail woman, I could hold her in one hand. I go get some help for her. I think I love her.


My motorcycle babe showed up again today

She is seventy-two

Mz Renee the one that comes on strong is leaving me alone. I lied and told her I had a wife.

What the hell am I doing here?

This place is so sad, or maybe it is me?

I want to get lost in the wind

To sail right off the edge of the world

Or my mind, which ever comes first.







GO GOing GOne

Just a travelling song.

Don't mean nothing

Just a GO

[Lightning Rod]

I'm limping around today. I feel about 90 years old
my ribs are paining me mightily. A few days ago I was reaching across my desk for something and I slipped and fell on the edge of the desk.
my ribs are very fragile, they must be about the consistency of a rice crispy
I know I heard them go snap, crackle and pop when I landed on my desk

I am no stranger to rib fractures. I have had eight or ten of them in my life.
doreen wants me to go to the doctor. I just roll my eyes.
The first few times I broke one I went to the doctor.
They would x-ray me and say, 'yep, you got a broken rib.'
and that would be it because there is no treatment that works
only time and your own healing power. So, going to the doctor is a useless exercise.

but it's a pain in the side and a nagging reminder of my sad lack of super powers and immortality.
I'll just have to keep an adequate amount of advil in me and hope that I don't get the
usual lung infection caused by the fact that I can't explosively clear my lungs without acute pain.
Is this what old men talk about? their bodily frailties?
I know it's god punishing me for how many women I've had
It's a wonder that this Adam has any ribs left.

[stilltrucking]

I have only had one broken rib, I think was the most painful fracture i have ever had. Diamond Lil (MS RN, NP) said nothing to be done except tape it up. And she did not recommend that. Only thing to do is take it easy. So long as nothing is punctured like a lung. Man please take care, time to cut back a little on the coffin nails. Just a little... It is an ill wind...

Yes women are definitely the frail ones. Thainking about The Big Sleep, one of the charters talking about his girl friend calls her a "frail".

"Frailty, thy name is woman!"

Meanwhile I am surrounded by frail old women, where did all the old men go?

I am being punished for how many women have had me I think. They are all hip to my tricks.

Breathe got dam it, breathe.

btw, thainking a typo but I like the way it sounds

[Zlatko Waterman]

Dear Hester:

Another report from the geriatric corps:

I understand very fully what you say about management in the health care industry. It is essentially identical in education, and from what we learn about Jack Abramoff and his fellow wiggly demons, evidently the same with his gang of guys who use pitchforks and pull fingers off to get what they want.

I hope you get occasional singing gigs, for you are very, very talented and deserve public hearings.

I make art, lots of it. I have had a gig doing paperback book covers ( see my post on Zlatkomix). Writing poems was an art that returned with some seriousness when I was about 59 and I continue to publish now and then.

PUBLISHERS MARKETPLACE will be publishing an interview with me done by one of their editors, Susan Henderson, a nice, sharp lady, in June.

I am editing comic books. Yes, for another artist I've edited a graphic novel, and will be working on a second series soon. Here's his website:

http://www.lorilovecraft.com/Content.html

The comic G/N is cute, funny, sexy and satirical, and most of all beautifully drawn by Mike. He's a good buddy I met from consorting with fellow cartoonists in Burbank.

Now I'm working on a 55-page gumshoe detective graphic novel of his. I write, knit things together, groom dialogue and correct mistakes. It's a constructive undertaking. And far better than teaching.

Our love goes out to you,


Zlatko

[judih]

hi hester.
i'm still kickin, trying to remember which way is which way.

my son just complimented me by saying that my body is not dripping (how's that for a hot flash?)

and other than that, i'm doing the usual gig of teaching english and then teaching some more. i walk as much as possible to meet my maker foot to foot,

lucky for me that i can hear you sing - no need for ipods - your voice is in my head.

Over here, after the last election, one of the better surprises was that the Pensioners received 7 seats in our parliament, the Knesset.

Rafi Eitan, a large, brilliant figure in our state's history is now head of that party and out to see some justice done.

yah!

good to hear from you. Never fear. wordlessness is a wonderful thing among friends.

best to Stella

judih

[mousey1]

Oh there you are!

Eegads!

All work and no play

tut tut tut

and

hey hey hey

I'd tell you about my daze

but why bore you to tears.

Don't be a stranger

and it's okay if your writing is crappay

it'll make mine look better!

I am too selfish to live!

[hester_prynne]

Still truckin,
Mnaz,
Artguy,
Arcadia,
Lightnin Rod,
Zlatko,
Judih,
Mousey.

Your every word savored and delightfulled over.
Like rays of friendly lightbeams, streaming through the walls of my stubborn retreat.

So nice to read you....
delicious in fact....
H