head cold revalations...

[izeveryboyin]

I work up this morning at 4. I'm not sure why. Some unnatural breach of consciousness has disturbed my internal alarm clock. I got sleepy again at around 7 but by this time, of course, the damage was done. I pulled myself out of my stupor and headed out, sneezing into my crumpled tissue and groaning in despair. It just really doesn't get any better. I am going abroad. Can you fucking stand it? Hardly, I'm sure. I have one of those head colds that makes your eyes all irritated and numb. So I'm sitting here in the school library with this stupid squinty look in my eyes thinking "my ass is twitching. You people make my ass twitch." I'm pretty drained. I'm almost sick of all of you... but I can't quite bring myself to scratch out your eyeballs with a pencil because to be honest with you I'm wearing white... and there's no way I'm fucking up this shirt. My camera as it stands is still on no less than 16 different kinds of drugs after it's near fatal fall just a few short weeks ago and I long for another breakfast at 5am w/the hero who saved it. Now all it needs is a stint in rehab and all will be well. I feel pretty alone at this point b/c my two best friends are leaving and I'm stuck here with you guys. My bank account has seen more negative balances over the last year than perhaps ever in my entire life and I am still trying to figure out what went wrong there. Because I cannot keep doing this slow mind-fuck to myself without having something to show for it in the end. I met a drag queen the other night and she taught me in a few short minutes that no matter how soft your hands, no matter how tight your jeans or how artfully done your makeup is... there will always be a million guys who'd rather fuck you up the ass than treat you like a human being.

END.

[Arcadia]

hey, izzy... now we all know what to to when you have a pencil in your hands and you're not writing or something...!!!. I can't help you with the bank account... I only have money there one day a month...!
take care,

Arcadia

[stilltrucking]

Maybe you should wear dark colors

I know what you mean

Hard to get those blood stains out.


I have never seen a cold put to better use.
Keep on writing
please

[izeveryboyin]

thanks guys. Next time I'll wear black.

--k

[stilltrucking]

I like wearing white too
There is always bleach.

[izeveryboyin]

very true. very true.

--k