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drs say "it was a natural abortion"

body.....natural selection....

i am drinking.....i know it was a son.

(i'll want to erase this post tomorrow)

maybe you should erase it tonight. Or I will for you if you want. I wish this wasn't happening. you're making me cry...

ronnie can tell anyone whatever he wants, he will do so no matter what i say or think or feel or communicate to him. i guess i support his imagination and passion for words and communication, at any rate.

but i also support the truth. i know that he gets mass amounts of pleasure knowing that the things he can write on here can be interpreted many ways. which is great. it's a great lesson in point of view and audience empathy. for example, he may not have meant for anyone to assume that the "abortion" and "son" involved ME at all.

however, and not just because i'm a mommy-fearing woman and will always wonder 'what would my mom say if she knew about this,' i need to get my own back.

just in case.

so, this isn't about me. just so you know. not that my life is consumed with fear of what other people think about me, rather i feel it necessary for my peace of mind to respond.

even if you erase this, babylove. i had to say something. and since i can't verbally communicate with you right now, and you know that isn't my choice, i have to do it here.

as long as this is all going to be deleted

I was sure that it was a daughter

and she was amazed that it looked like a tiny baby

she a woman

who did not make that choice without a care

damn me for giving her that choice.

but we were looking for the ultimate orgasm
and it was sweet
but hardly worth the pain and suffering
when I blissed out and let the condom get away

she forgave me long ago
but I still have not forgave myself
and I never will


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