Well, I write a journal every day and all the details are an "open blog." It is understandable why few would want to read my babble, drivel, general shit and lofty ideals that I publish each and every day (almost.) I arise before the crack of dawn and write and answer email, stuff like that. Today, I am tired and taking a break, hence I am here, talking to you.
Odd senses of humor are appreciated. Just because I didn't get it doesn't mean a hill of beans. I don't get a lot of stuff as I tend to be very trusting (and skeptical, a dichotomy, I know) and take everyone at their word. It is easy to pull the wool over these eyes, nothing to do with your humor. Just me.
Dor:
You said that the arts were your life... for you and Cecil... and when i read that, it felt like you were saying it as if I didn't know that.
Naw, I know how creative you are, no doubt here.
Dor:
"And so I thought it was funny to say stuff about my involvement in the arts as a huge part of my life .... as my reason for living and breathing.... even though you know that because my sense of humor is odd, I guess, and since you said something that I knew about your involvement with the arts, I did the same thing. Sigh... silly maybe but ... *shrug*... I like being silly. That's why I said I have a website for artists and said "Stop by some time" ... and you're already here! I thought that was funny. Which is why I added the "LOL!" meaning I was laughing.
..... Anyway... sorry to confuse you and I'm sorry I think I'm funnier than I am, apparently! LOL"
You are as funny as you think you are and I have no reason to disbelieve you. I crack me up and frankly couldn't care less if anyone else thinks I am funny or not.
Dor:
"So, you were bragging as you have every right to and I think it's great! And I guess I was bragging a little, too."
You go gurl!! Pat yerself on the back, even if no one else does, I do.
Dor:
But I'm a little envious of you being able to make a living with your art. One day I'd like to do that. Well, I guess many would think that I DO make a living at doing art because I'm a Graphic Designer for my day job but gawd I hate sitting in front of a computer! I am soooooo sick of it. I'd love to have a Studio Eight Live venue... an Arts Center... with artists of various genres who get together in real life.
My theory is, take a leap, jump and let what may happen, happen. Sometimes I worry about the "numbers" and the fact that we live on the edge of the abyss but most of the time, I am loving every minute of my life. Do what you want my friend, do not live in fear because that will rob you of your joy. And who wants to end their lives joyless?
Dor:
I'm so damn lonesome for a real life I can't even tell you. If it wasn't so sad, I'd be crying, but I have to laugh because who wants to hear someone complain like that? LOL
I complain all the time, If I feel like it, and don't really care what everyone else thinks. I am too old to be concerned about what others are thinking and have no control over them or their thoughts, just myself, the only person I can control.
Surrounding yerself with support systems is important, like the folks here on the Studio, to maintain and get compassion for life's sufferings. We all suffer but we all have the capacity to love and be loved. Hence, we are never, ever alone, just lonely sometimes.
Dor:
Also, I DID know you have 2 sons. But I didn't know one of them was married and so I didn't know you had a daughter-in-law. That's great! And she sounds like a wonderful lady! I'm happy for your families! How long have they been married? Do they have any children? (are you a grandma now?)
Noah and Jen will be celebrating their 10th Anniversary this year and are living most happily in Austin, TX. They do not want children (maybe because she has a congenital heart defect and Noah a genetic marker for Translocated Down's Syndrome or just maybe they realize what a challenge and responsibility they are.) I don't know, they haven't told me and I haven't asked.
Nate of course, will never have children and he, frankly, thinks babies are a whiny, pain in the ass so that is a good thing, I guess. It would be sad for me if he really wanted them.
So, sadly, I will never BE a Grannie altho, I would like to and envy all my buddies that are. It would be lovely to have children that I could return when they get ugly.
I have my dogs, my garden and backyard habitat, my art and work and passion, Cec and Nate (which are more than a handful) and my life is very, very full (of laughs, tears and otherwise.)
Thank you for the intercourse (I do crack me up lol) and I have enjoyed our tete da tete. Have a nice evening.
SooZen