I can remember the first drag of poisonous discontent, I spat it out and crushed it harshly against the wall. "uh, God, that shit's terrible." That was... oh man, *pauses to count the years on fingers in preschool like manner* 8 years ago. Bout 6 mos later, I got my grubby paws on a box of Marlboro lights. "Eh... not so bad. Still chockes me to death though." The following year, I was introduced to Pall Mall, Newport, Virginia Slim, Camel Djarum Hali Bali, and my absolute favorite (the ones I smoke to this day) Djarum Black. My mother recently visited the shithole and sniffed the smell of nicotine laced with indian spices "for my smoking pleasure." She frowned, and made her way past dirty clothes, papers, dusty old copies of Dostoyevsky, Moliere and M. Proust over to my bed. (As I live in a studio, a very small studio, there was quiet a path of clothes, but a very distance-challened one, ergo, lots of crap in a very small space). "You do know that this place smells like your eventual death of lung cancer right? Because cigarettes cause cancer." I smirked and thought, "No mom, they don't cause cancer, just mild hospitalization and chemo... here's you sign!" I pulled a cig from out of the elegant black box and lit it up. "Are you smoking? Are you actually smoking?" I smirked and thought, "No mom, I practising my breathing excersises for when I give birth... here's you sign!". Question to all you folks: Do you smoke? If so, how'd you start smoking? If not, why? (I'll answer that one, "Because it's gross and like, causes cancer and stuff, duh") If so, what brand do you smoke, and for how long? Are you a chain-smoker, how much is you monthly smoking budget? Where do you most often find yourself smoking? Here are my answers to the aforementioned questions:
-Yes.
-I tried it myself, hated it, tried another brand, was indifferent, tried Djarum Black and liked the taste (and slo, lamely, the way it looked in my hand (sighs in shame and self defeat) and so I just kept with it.
-Djarum Black, for about 7 years now, on and off.
-I never smoke more than three a day, unless I'm stressed or find myself in a group full of smokers. *drops head down and admits defeat of self-perseverance by peers*
-My monthly budget is about $16.50. I buy a pack every two weeks.
-Outside the college after class, or where ever my mother's speaking to me

sometimes I just like to breathe.
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