uhm... just a rant about life and religion
Posted: November 26th, 2004, 10:25 am
this is an email i wrote to a pal the other day... she'd written me a big epic update about life, and how in re-finding god she was finding a lot of happiness...
i didn't mean to burst her bubble, or rain on her parade, but her email made me launch into a big pedatic rant about comfort in life and religion...
i thought i'd share, just to hear your thoughts, if you felt like a small read about my philosophical feelings... bwah bwah bwah!
here is the bulk of the email i wrote:
so i loved your MASSIVE epic of an email! i am pleased to hear you've reached a new level of personal comfort... i tells ya, life is like that: the whole thing is about reaching personal epiphanies and going through different phases of acceptance. this world is pure madness! it's a big crazy question mark, and how we deal with the uncertainties of our lives, and how much we manage to find the beautiful things, and how we behave and react to the things that happen, is what the journey is all about... i love it sometimes, and i hate it sometimes, but i think you're in a good spot right now, realizing that at least "making the most" of it, and keeping a smile on your face, is often the most successful way to appease your soul and maintain your courage. i read a lot of kurt vonnegut, and today he was talking to me about it all being a big comedy, and that being able to make jokes of serious situations is how he has managed to lead a happy and successful life...
about eleven or twelve years ago now, i had the biggest personal
change of my life. i had a night that transformed everything for me... did i ever tell you about it? if not, you'll have to say so, because i'll send you a story where i wrote all about it... one major thing came out of it, in a nutshell: i realized that happiness was a result of confidence, kindness, and positivity... and that none of those things are simple, overnight concepts that you "receive" by any circumstances in life... they are qualities which we have to be ready to adopt into our lives, and we have to work hard to maintain them. so, by trickle down effect, i totally agree with what you've been affirming lately for yourself: happiness is a decision. for me, it's a daily decision, which has gotten easier and easier... life throws hurdles now and then which seek to impede my confidence, positivity, or kindness, and hitherto my happiness, but i am good about always reminding myself to get back on track... at the risk of sounding particularly blasphemous or arrogant, i've nearly convinced myself that these ideas are indeed the meaning of life.
you mentioned getting involved with your church, and that it has
created some happiness for you. that's great. in my eyes, a church
is just a big form of extended family, and that's essentially why it's
beneficial. we all need lots of support groups around us, to remind
us we're not alone in this big mystery...
however, the topic of religion is one that i could rant about for
hours and hours, over several essays. in fact, i've already written
quite a few. i tend to side with bill maher on the subject of
religion: it's fucked!
my mum was a nonpracticing roman catholic. my dad is a full-on
athiest, who told me when i was a kid and my mum was trying to send my brother and i to sunday school, "son, religion is for people who fear death". i think that stuck with me a bit. i became a religious cynic.
there are many ways that a person can learn about ethics and morality, and most religions are claiming to be the divine source of such education. they also deem to answer the questions which i don't think humanity's yet got the evolved intelligence, nor technology, to answer. the birth of every religion was to cool down the masses, and teach them not to be afraid of the unknown. every religion agrees: we must be kind to each other, respect the planet, don't kill, and generally try to acknowledge that there "might" be more going on than we know! then men took religion and fucked it all up and used it as a greedy profit machine. they tried to regiment faith, and created all sorts of metaphoric stories to give us examples of how we should behave, many of which the ignorant sheep took literally. in today's society, it's totally out of control. i will admit however, that SOME churches are evolving, and teaching about tolerance and education of other forms of faith. in my opinion, no child should be "told" that "this is the way it is"... i believe that in that particular incarnation, religion is the biggest example of human ignorance that is still rampant in the world today. i personally have studied loads of christian options, plus some islam, hindu, and tons of eastern philosophies like buddhism and taoism. most are so stupidly intolerant and ignorant toward each other, as to suggest that by some mysterious insistence, THEIR god is the real one. what a pile of
mallarky. religion has created more death and horror for humanity
than any other device. it has generated the most closed minded and arrogant species of human possible. at their core, many of the
world's leaders, in charge of militaries and economies, have vast
prejudices against each other because of their religious differences.
this infuriates me.
now don't get me wrong - i have a great love and tolerance of the
average church abiding citizen... cuz they don't think about all of
this. to most, it's just a haven where they feel safe and learn about ethics... i guess i just wish that people weren't taught to believe that they need to learn that stuff from only one source. it's my feeling that we all share the same internal ethical guideline in our lives, regardless of rearing or socialization or societal caste.
i like to believe that there's something more going on than just this
physical existence. i love movies like "phenomenon" and "powder". i love going to churches (sometimes) and listening to ministers prattle about christ's life. i like to feel as if i'm more important than these few decades i've been given. i like to dream that when my heart stops beating and my brain fizzles and my body rots into the ground (or gets disected by scientists, as is my wish), then by some miracle, the entity that is the true me, will continue, somehow. i dunno whether i'll become energy and move into another being, or transport to a different spot in the universe or another dimension, or whether i'll reincarnate here on earth, as a goat. whatever the case, i guess i hope for something. that makes me "agnostic". fair enough. i think my dad's a bit of a pessimistic loon for being an athiest! how dreary!
it's my religion to be a humanist; to believe that we all are our own
god and devil and creator and afterlife... i revel in not knowing the
answers to "what happens when i die" and "is there a higher power" and "what's the meaning of life". i don't think we should know the answers; i think the questions are the answer. hell, why not throw in "i wonder if we're alone in the universe", and "is magic real", and "can people communicate telepathically", and "what's the deal with all this ESP stuff?!?!?"... hahahaha. in fact, i am a regular candidate for particularly powerful "deja vu", where about every two weeks i have a wave of familiarity wash over me, and usually i can pinpoint knowing the scene, from a dream two weeks prior! how do ya like them apples?!?!? i like to buy into the PLAUSIBILITY of many things, like astrology, and extraterrestrial life, and god, or buddha, or allah, or whoever. but it's all just a bunch of plausible theories after all, so i prefer to just smirk and say, "why not?!?"
behaving ourselves is what we can choose to do in life. questioning the ills of our surroundings is how we stay sane, in my opinion. be positive and happy within your environment, but don't achieve it by being ignorant of the world around you... personally, i hate the damned ruling governments of the world, with their ignoring of environmental destruction, and global overpopulation, and rampant disease in other countries, and their bloody shortsighted greed. the economic and militaristic leaders of the world are rapidly making this planet inhospitable for our heirs. that fuckin sucks. i keep my sanity and my happiness by keeping it all in perspective. my arrogant attitude tells me that by writing stuff like this, and speaking out in the correct forums, and influencing all the people i meet with goodness and kindness, i'm doing my part. blah blah blah i guess by now i'm way off topic.
i sure appreciated your email. it gave me a chance to respond and wax philosophic for awhile! i hope this finds you with a big smile on! may the sun shine hotly on your back, the winter winds give you a crisp widening of your eyes and a tickle down your spine, and may you experience the glowing affections of the people around you.
i didn't mean to burst her bubble, or rain on her parade, but her email made me launch into a big pedatic rant about comfort in life and religion...
i thought i'd share, just to hear your thoughts, if you felt like a small read about my philosophical feelings... bwah bwah bwah!
here is the bulk of the email i wrote:
so i loved your MASSIVE epic of an email! i am pleased to hear you've reached a new level of personal comfort... i tells ya, life is like that: the whole thing is about reaching personal epiphanies and going through different phases of acceptance. this world is pure madness! it's a big crazy question mark, and how we deal with the uncertainties of our lives, and how much we manage to find the beautiful things, and how we behave and react to the things that happen, is what the journey is all about... i love it sometimes, and i hate it sometimes, but i think you're in a good spot right now, realizing that at least "making the most" of it, and keeping a smile on your face, is often the most successful way to appease your soul and maintain your courage. i read a lot of kurt vonnegut, and today he was talking to me about it all being a big comedy, and that being able to make jokes of serious situations is how he has managed to lead a happy and successful life...
about eleven or twelve years ago now, i had the biggest personal
change of my life. i had a night that transformed everything for me... did i ever tell you about it? if not, you'll have to say so, because i'll send you a story where i wrote all about it... one major thing came out of it, in a nutshell: i realized that happiness was a result of confidence, kindness, and positivity... and that none of those things are simple, overnight concepts that you "receive" by any circumstances in life... they are qualities which we have to be ready to adopt into our lives, and we have to work hard to maintain them. so, by trickle down effect, i totally agree with what you've been affirming lately for yourself: happiness is a decision. for me, it's a daily decision, which has gotten easier and easier... life throws hurdles now and then which seek to impede my confidence, positivity, or kindness, and hitherto my happiness, but i am good about always reminding myself to get back on track... at the risk of sounding particularly blasphemous or arrogant, i've nearly convinced myself that these ideas are indeed the meaning of life.
you mentioned getting involved with your church, and that it has
created some happiness for you. that's great. in my eyes, a church
is just a big form of extended family, and that's essentially why it's
beneficial. we all need lots of support groups around us, to remind
us we're not alone in this big mystery...
however, the topic of religion is one that i could rant about for
hours and hours, over several essays. in fact, i've already written
quite a few. i tend to side with bill maher on the subject of
religion: it's fucked!
my mum was a nonpracticing roman catholic. my dad is a full-on
athiest, who told me when i was a kid and my mum was trying to send my brother and i to sunday school, "son, religion is for people who fear death". i think that stuck with me a bit. i became a religious cynic.
there are many ways that a person can learn about ethics and morality, and most religions are claiming to be the divine source of such education. they also deem to answer the questions which i don't think humanity's yet got the evolved intelligence, nor technology, to answer. the birth of every religion was to cool down the masses, and teach them not to be afraid of the unknown. every religion agrees: we must be kind to each other, respect the planet, don't kill, and generally try to acknowledge that there "might" be more going on than we know! then men took religion and fucked it all up and used it as a greedy profit machine. they tried to regiment faith, and created all sorts of metaphoric stories to give us examples of how we should behave, many of which the ignorant sheep took literally. in today's society, it's totally out of control. i will admit however, that SOME churches are evolving, and teaching about tolerance and education of other forms of faith. in my opinion, no child should be "told" that "this is the way it is"... i believe that in that particular incarnation, religion is the biggest example of human ignorance that is still rampant in the world today. i personally have studied loads of christian options, plus some islam, hindu, and tons of eastern philosophies like buddhism and taoism. most are so stupidly intolerant and ignorant toward each other, as to suggest that by some mysterious insistence, THEIR god is the real one. what a pile of
mallarky. religion has created more death and horror for humanity
than any other device. it has generated the most closed minded and arrogant species of human possible. at their core, many of the
world's leaders, in charge of militaries and economies, have vast
prejudices against each other because of their religious differences.
this infuriates me.
now don't get me wrong - i have a great love and tolerance of the
average church abiding citizen... cuz they don't think about all of
this. to most, it's just a haven where they feel safe and learn about ethics... i guess i just wish that people weren't taught to believe that they need to learn that stuff from only one source. it's my feeling that we all share the same internal ethical guideline in our lives, regardless of rearing or socialization or societal caste.
i like to believe that there's something more going on than just this
physical existence. i love movies like "phenomenon" and "powder". i love going to churches (sometimes) and listening to ministers prattle about christ's life. i like to feel as if i'm more important than these few decades i've been given. i like to dream that when my heart stops beating and my brain fizzles and my body rots into the ground (or gets disected by scientists, as is my wish), then by some miracle, the entity that is the true me, will continue, somehow. i dunno whether i'll become energy and move into another being, or transport to a different spot in the universe or another dimension, or whether i'll reincarnate here on earth, as a goat. whatever the case, i guess i hope for something. that makes me "agnostic". fair enough. i think my dad's a bit of a pessimistic loon for being an athiest! how dreary!
it's my religion to be a humanist; to believe that we all are our own
god and devil and creator and afterlife... i revel in not knowing the
answers to "what happens when i die" and "is there a higher power" and "what's the meaning of life". i don't think we should know the answers; i think the questions are the answer. hell, why not throw in "i wonder if we're alone in the universe", and "is magic real", and "can people communicate telepathically", and "what's the deal with all this ESP stuff?!?!?"... hahahaha. in fact, i am a regular candidate for particularly powerful "deja vu", where about every two weeks i have a wave of familiarity wash over me, and usually i can pinpoint knowing the scene, from a dream two weeks prior! how do ya like them apples?!?!? i like to buy into the PLAUSIBILITY of many things, like astrology, and extraterrestrial life, and god, or buddha, or allah, or whoever. but it's all just a bunch of plausible theories after all, so i prefer to just smirk and say, "why not?!?"
behaving ourselves is what we can choose to do in life. questioning the ills of our surroundings is how we stay sane, in my opinion. be positive and happy within your environment, but don't achieve it by being ignorant of the world around you... personally, i hate the damned ruling governments of the world, with their ignoring of environmental destruction, and global overpopulation, and rampant disease in other countries, and their bloody shortsighted greed. the economic and militaristic leaders of the world are rapidly making this planet inhospitable for our heirs. that fuckin sucks. i keep my sanity and my happiness by keeping it all in perspective. my arrogant attitude tells me that by writing stuff like this, and speaking out in the correct forums, and influencing all the people i meet with goodness and kindness, i'm doing my part. blah blah blah i guess by now i'm way off topic.
i sure appreciated your email. it gave me a chance to respond and wax philosophic for awhile! i hope this finds you with a big smile on! may the sun shine hotly on your back, the winter winds give you a crisp widening of your eyes and a tickle down your spine, and may you experience the glowing affections of the people around you.