I miss the darkness
Posted: July 3rd, 2007, 10:54 am
Am I evil?
There is no darkness here
Electric street lamps everywhere
I miss the total darkness
But even then as my eyes became acclimated to it I could make out the faint light filtering down from the narrow space between the trap door and the floor. When he first put me down there, I miss my eyes straining to see into the pitch-blackness.
I have this string of moments beaded together, a good memory a bad memory. But some of the bad memories become interesting to me now that I am over fifty years removed from them.
I have not seen the stars in months. Everything so well lit in this senior housing complex.
Trying to figure out why I stay here.
It is true, Nietzsche is right; decadence is when bachelors live like married men.
I need to go,
Only guilt keeps me here
I must find the stars, and moon
I must have darkness too.
Like solitary confinement with the lights always on.
There is no darkness here
Electric street lamps everywhere
I miss the total darkness
But even then as my eyes became acclimated to it I could make out the faint light filtering down from the narrow space between the trap door and the floor. When he first put me down there, I miss my eyes straining to see into the pitch-blackness.
I have this string of moments beaded together, a good memory a bad memory. But some of the bad memories become interesting to me now that I am over fifty years removed from them.
I have not seen the stars in months. Everything so well lit in this senior housing complex.
Trying to figure out why I stay here.
It is true, Nietzsche is right; decadence is when bachelors live like married men.
I need to go,
Only guilt keeps me here
I must find the stars, and moon
I must have darkness too.
Like solitary confinement with the lights always on.