pot is not

[stilltrucking]

Kerouac said that the sweetest thing in the world is the child's belief that his father knows everything.

For years I believed Crazy Mike when he said "Man proposes and G-d disposes"

Now I believe that my father was wrong.

G-d proposes and it is man that disposes.

Just a thought

don't mean nothing

I hardly interact with children at all. I live in such a sterile adult world at the senior housing complex.

[Doreen Peri]

I've always wondered why you leave the O out of the word God when you type it, Jack. Why is that? Just curious.

[stilltrucking]

Be cause I got no idea what it is, from what little I know about that tribal god of my mothers before me they did not really have a name for it.

sometimes I write God, sometimes I right god sometimes G*d or G_d, not really a fetish I just want to be clear I go not much idea in my mind what that it is.

have I made it clear as mud.?

someimes
sometimes
the lights all shinning on me.

thinking about an a r r ammons poem
something about being as holy as the stars or a paperclip.

Lately I been thinking about God or G-d as a real estate broker.

[jimboloco]

don juan said he was a stock broker
in the sonoran desert

i like the word god
reminds me of g**d

i remember where i first heard the poem
pot is not
my mother told it to me

yes i give thanks i grew up
so kind
and disrespectful

my wife went thru the days of rage
finally had to admit
that despite it all
i am a good fellow
kind to her and respnsible
except for the ganja

yes
still smoking
and i guess i will as long a s t h e p a r t y lasts!


god is good
the human impulse to be good
is god

[still.trucking]

there is no free brunch the quantum mechanics say
I am just a grease monkey
I still believe in Grace
I ride the black wind today

Good to hear you and Suzy Q have reconciled

I could not live with a woman again
Well maybe if she had a lot of money and could build her own kitchen and bathroom

Come to think of it
I think she have to live in her own house.
and me in mine

Black winds howl around my head today
A good sign my blood sugar is out of sight
Shit mescaline, mushrooms lsd they ain't nothing compared to this.

[MrGuilty]

I believe in Gracie Allen too. I was in the o-zone yesterday. It was a good thing the bear was with me. I stroked out. Heart stroke. Today I am trying to find my sense of humor about it. But man I still fell like I got an extra hole in my head.


I been listening to this song a lot today for some reason.

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[jimboloco]

Good to hear you and Suzy Q have reconciled

me too
it was a little bit of grace
why it happennedd lord only knows
her grace appeared thru my step-daughter
mercy
suzie-q had her initial spout spat
cuz she knowed i had smoked
altho i was washed up
my hands were clean
an she split
i thought she was taking off
so i called her son
the eagle who got me the dude
with the pot
an was having him talk me down,
on the loudspeaker, when
in comes suzie=q angry and
she started yelling at brian and me both
fuming and having a tantrum,
so i said to brian,
"there you go!" an hanged up
finally in came lil nathan, big austin,
an lindy
so i walked around them
an all of a sudden suzie-q started gesturing at me and redfaced yelling
coming at me when lindy stepped in, held her back, talked her down.
"you don't want to lose everything over this," like,
and wow, told her to not make contact, like physical,
(due to her own experience with my son-out-law, bashing him once
an altho steve din tell on her, his sis did, mercy)
and so she calmed suzie-q down
and eventually they talked
an i asked her to tell me what was it about my behavior
that made her angry,
and she knew that i had been calm, pleasant, kind,
encouraging, etc, as my norm,
later on she was able to let go her fear against pot
so now i have a new deliberation

will this never end?

i have to wrestle with myself now
what is for the best
what kind of lifestyle i want
how can i increase my productive use of my allotted time?
smoking pot takes time

ah well,
lindy was right there when i needed her
and when suzie-q needed her tooo
amazing grace, indeed

heat or heart
an there's no excuse for not taking care of your diabetes, man
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[still.trucking]

4297‎

I lost count, I thought it was 4189.

Thanks for the video.

And I appreciate the complaint (sincerely)

thanks for the private message

Me too jimboloco.

[jimboloco]

G-d proposes and it is man that disposes.
i agree

[jimboloco]

one more thread to this dread thread-
bare brain now emptied of all complaint
into a plateau of merciful at-one-ment
in my backyard patio with pool and summer breese
monday morning luxury life of rylie
end of a cold not allowed at work
nothing ta do but tai chi and float on the water
looking up at blue sky and summer morning puff clouds
as birdies call and trees wave in th breeze
at my ease like huck finn goin down th river
cept i ain't goin' nowhere, just th river of time
and my sacred breaths, giving thankz for it all
with hopes for some more good works as a way to reward myself for surviving thru my former travail and quit worrying about the old fears
still imprinted there in my deep brain, know that deeper still
is th deep mynd, duh, healing waters and whispers of th still small voice
within

[still.trucking]

"My those who are born after me
Never travell such roads of love"---- Mr Moto
(Hitomaro)

Laughing Buddha Boys
do it deeper

[what me worry?]

it seems stupid that you would quit now just when you have made it all ok

[the flaming ace]

yahhh, GET A LIFE!

[jimboloco]

some day soon i will re read th scroll and wonderfulll comments from well wishers ever since spring, '08.

i just went back to my mu-zen-kwanyin mental health therapist!

duh

i thought it was about 2 years ago, my only last spring.

i made my solid inner affirmatios, had my satori about dualism, it is good

laughing now working deeper, mindfullness into the transcendent, non-dual i guess, whatever that aisn't.

smoked 2 joints yesterday. today, 4th of july, will work out with my wife, oops, maybe, and stay straight, maybe.

godbless the USA!

[jackofnightmares]

I have not had a mental health therapist in over forty years, not since the draft board classified me four f because I could not get to sleep at night unless I imagined my self laying there with a rifle tucked up under my chin and my finger resting on the trigger. I never had to hear the click of the mechanism, it was just a comforting thought to fall to sleep on. I guess Nietzsche was right about whatever gets you through the night.

What does your therapist say about the weed and the SSRI's? Or did we have that conversation before? I will have to scroll back.

"auhging buddha boyz do it deeper"

you don't know the power of the daark syde!

Geezus jim
That's a harsh emoticon
yu tryin to harsh my mellow?
how do you know what I don't know
I just thought it was a peculiar private message, maybe you did not realize this is another one of my virtual CB handles.

sorry if I created any confusetacation there.
I been into the bitter herbs myself today and yesterday
"Laughing Buddha Boys Do Not Have All The Answers."
I like that line from hester a lot.