pot is not

[jimboloco]

http://www.studioeight.tv/phpbb/viewtopic.php?t=10985
oh my i started this one even before

spirits in beings
sentient beings
including God
Who is in us all
and is a spirit entity
like us
that's a bit of luck really
speaking of a higher power and abe-
raham and sacrifice
reading abraham's curse by
bruce chilton
roots of violence in abrahamaic religions

[jimboloco]

saw the dude
got a stash
play it kool
pot is not

spoke with my zen therapist
a recovering american jew
he went to synagogue every day
for a year after his bar mitsvah
he was 12-13, his dad died of cancer
and became religious when he was dying
zen ken says the jewish older men were
condescending and pitied him
and that he was very uncomfortable there
no matter that he liked the spiritual aspect
we talked about dynamics in spiritual groups
and feeling comfortable with the people is very important

last sunday basically i said goodbye to the quakers
it was my 4th visit in three months, since ten years before,
i became so uncomfortable that i had to leave
stayed for the service, silent with spiritual offerings,

joys and sorrows, in ehich one fellow spoke about the spiritual sense of a meeting for business,
so weighty and onerous,
tho they be ecuminical yes and wonderfully so,
they are also tethered to a tight organizational discipline
and membership means staying after for business meetings,
commitees,
projects,
care of the meeting
and southeast yearly meeting. etc

not for me
after all this time
sp i am gooing back to the unitarian universdalist churcxh in clearwater
i know another fellow
frank tedesco with a phd in buddhist studies
i met him years before at the quackers
but they have changed
i heard after i left that frank had gotten kicked out of meeting
he had made some comment
and was booted
so tex yer not th first
frank has a meditation group on tues eves
i saw him briefly atr the interfaith service
he smiles with a sneer

he looks jewish also

oy vey
i like old frank
he was an ambassadiorial aide in the american embassy in seol korea

now just a well dressed bum

[stilltrucking]

The Religious Society of Ducks, (aka Quackers)

Abraham's Curse
A recovering American Jew

The book sounds like a must read for me
The comment about the American Jew I understand that...
I was a fortunate son, my father spared me the religious training so I did not have so much to recover from as others. No Bar Mitzvah no nothing but I liked those old orthodox synagogues my grandfather used to go to. That first Quaker meeting on Charles st I went to in Baltimore reminded me of it. Pretty simple and austere house of worship. I am done with the Quakers too. Except for the meeting in Nashville Tennessee, those dear hearts and gentle Friends will always be with me. Mostly college professors for some reason. They have not heard from me in thirty years. I am sure they have dropped me from the membership by now.





Feeling better lost six pounds so far maybe eight hard to read the scale. My blood sugar almost normal fasting in the mornings.

Thanks for that video Jim. I feel closer to yoy after seeing it.

Drank a cup a tea and smoked my last bowl while I was watching it.
I am out and have no plans to get any more for a while I hope. Got me off to a good start with this diet even with the munchies.

[Doreen Peri]

Cool! I never saw this before now! thanks for the link, Jim!

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[jimboloco]

mercy me doreen
you an judih both like my drunken stoned sorry ass!

hi judih
i attached this thread into the first frame of the pot is not scroll
because this preceeds that
infact that is the "before" video
over two years ago
i am changing now, pot is not, no more smokes
i am still dealing with an anticipated hiatus
from pot
only one beer so far this year
an abby ale

thanks for th complement
that was the jimboloco whose prayer
ya left on th holy mountain
shalom

[judih]

one more time
timeless one

[jimboloco]

oh that is so wonderful judih
i give you hugs doreen slipped away
oh i can feel th closeness of your heart
so swell!

well i had my friend jim talk me down jack
he'z a quaking fellow
nam vet on disability
watched the vc he shot die trapped in th wires
at bien hoa base during tet took hours
then he ran to his girlfriend's place
it was flattenned by american artillery
she was pregnant he was gonna bring her home
he still quakes but ecuminically bright
just takes him forever to add my name and number as a contact
to his cellphone
but i'm in now so he answers my call
tells me be yourself
but what about th stodgy ones? i ask
he laughs they're not all stodgy
an my zen therapist
reminded me of locus of control
where am i?
what am i doing?
what do i want?
how am i feeling?
my version i rearranged
my own model


oh i may go back to th quakers
it is special
or my friend frank tedesco, phd
buddhist studies
was kicked outa th quaker meeting years ago
like you
was seized by th light!
frank is not
so he's got sa meditation group
tues eves
Unitarian Universalist Church clearwater
where th zendo habitates th parsonage
an th head minister is indian hindu
with a masters in theology
from illinois!

i love th old folks at meeting
always late
cuz i am stoned

tai chi is also waiting
been practicing on my own
now gonna celebrate
4 days off
smoke a joint
paint the repair in th cieling
start cleaning carpet

th dude will be at home 5 pm
just in from th underground strea
straight for valentine's day
i swear

[jimboloco]

by th way jack
there are two old Friends here in meeting
both now in their eighties
they were both quakers in nashville inthe1950's and for awhile
gary fullerton was a reporter for the nashville newspaper
then lived in paris working for the united nations
and my wonderful dear pegg rigg was there too
doing what i do not know but she
was an art professor at eckerd college in st pete for many years
was one of my helpers when i was down and out
we would go out to lunch afterwards with others
carry on
now she is very old and healthy and fit

just remembered
she smokes a little pot too

had a near death illness a dozen years ago
i walked into her icu bed sat quietly there
she was intubated in restraints
she did not know i was therejust a little wink secret i keep
i saw her privates
spread th sheet to cover her
legs and feet
and th underground streamer

we smiled but have not yet spoken to her
i am holding back
maybe next time


i have another older friend as well
she came down from kent ohio
were there in 1970 4 dead in ohio national guard killed students
was a teacher there
lost her husband, who was very encouraging to me
lost her son skydiving
her daughter is a carpenter
she remarried an older man, now he is 100
an austrian jewish architect
he lived across the street from jack kerouak
his home still there surrounded by trees
cloistered and private
his wife died
and shirley married him

saw her at meeting last time
she was close and smiled at me
i always loved her
she said "coming full circle"
i said
"coming up empty"
she looked down and moved on

i don't want our conversation to end there

lord knows
i am a searcher
it's been two weeeks already
worked sundays
now some will be off
moving back into intimacy
silent meeting for worship
or singing creative progressive songs
in a universalist church
where erybody has a front row seat
no back benches
it's a dome
octagon
goes up all around

not so earthy either
oh well there's always Karaoke

[the flaming ace]

confucious say HAVE SENSE OF SHAME!

[what me worry?]

one more time
timeless one

so there, he's not completly shameless, ace
his intentions are good!
dear lord he's been misunderstood!

[one of those jerks]

Thinking about that poor bastard that shot up the pentagon. He was institutionalized four times for mental illness but he had a prescription for medical pot. Since when is pot recommended for delusional paranoids?
Seems like I been reading a lot of news bytes about medical pot the last couple of weeks. Turned out to be a money making proposition that had not a lot to do with compassionate care. According to what I have heard from the anti-pot side.



I am plenty pissed at the military industrial complex these days
But a gun would not solve any problems for me.
I need a keyboard more than a gun to work on my issues.

Plenty of sane people out there with guns. He could not pass a background check to buy a gun in California but had no problem buying one in Maryland the day before he was shot to death at the pentagon.

No I don't need a gun
Then I would probably need a badge too.
Not sure if this is a complaint. It is not creative either I don't guess.

Fellow in San Antonio 18 years old just got life no parole for murder. He was set for the death penalty but his defense argued that he suffered from fetal-alcohol syndrome. Story mentioned he was smoking pot before the murder. Pot not so hot for people with fetal alcohol syndrome either.
Or so it seems.







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[jimboloco]

ps in advance, i am pretty pissed off at the military-industrial complex these days, too....the dude lost a freind in afghanistan, a marine, 25, was killed when the truck he was riding in flipped over, then a huge parade from macdill afb, across the gandy bridge, where i'd wintered in my old chevette, to the funeral home for visitiing, people with flags all along the route, the dude was going out to buy a suit for the funeral, yeah, they're fucking corrupt as is karzai, it's hillary we need in kabul, joe is playing the dog man behind the scenes, making his own scenes, meanwhile barack dons a white sox baseball hat as he throws out the first pitch for the nationals


one of my quacker friends, new, told me the only reason he doesn't committ suicide is because he likes having orgams, fortunately we were in public, actually after the meeting, after the after the meeting, in which we discussed in a circle, silence, breaking he silence, in meeting, and ended when i replied to the jewish pagan stotytelling professor of fine arts, "jesus was a rabbi!" an she says, "well, now we're getting to the next level"
so it was after that, anyhow, in the meeting house as things were breaking up seems as tho he takes depakote and smokes pot for his mania, does quite well is involved in all aspects of the meeting and does the teen and pre-teen first day school, with others, he's gay, involved in the city of gulfport, a bohemian town, artsy but beat, so i told him i would one day invite my grandson to meeting and would venture with him to the first day school, but really i won't cause auStin needs time out on sunday mawnings, man

i was smoking incessantly and swearing it off,
like before, yesterday went to work straight and came home straight, not was better. not so giggly, not so tired

[jimboloco]

too stoned to come onto studio eight i were
now i got pot growing up against my back deck an back wall
below the buddha must have blown in there after falling off the table
when i was so stoned i forgot they were there until too late
oops got several, and another one by the south fence, i am fixing to plant some more, keep them watered, will have ta transplant the ones by the house right now have the exercise bench over then and table, just now they are away, sunshine time.

things are looking up. i need to balance the weed out, tho i have had some wonderful phone calls into wmnf radioactivity, just last sunday skipping out finally on meeting after about 6 straight sundays
it helps expressiveness, but the fatigue after is something i don't like dealing with


it has helped me at work, but now i can see the dysfunctionality of it, i get the giggles

[jimboloco]

oh shit, there ain't no "c" in quakers!"

[stilltrucking]

Oh man, glad to see you, too wasted to read now. Spent all night working my new website. Running on two hours sleep. I can type like a maniac I just can't read.

be back when I get some sleep.

Quackers, aka the religious society of ducks.

I was just talking about you to sad luck dame yesterday, were your ears burning?