pot is not

[stilltrucking]

thought about it this morning
after the thunderstorms last night
the world fresh and green
staring at a train
nah
good enough
maybe tomorrow

[stilltrucking]

Woke up with a railroad spike hammered throught the top of my skull
thinking about it today
Maybe I will take a ride to the big city of new berlin
I don't want a pickle
just wanta ride my motor sickle

trying to not think about sweet maryjane
but what is the point of trying not to think
I tell myself not think about pink elephants and dam you know what happens next.

thinking about her today


She has not posted in months
her last post mentioned her son
a marine
trying to not to worry about him
ohlordy jimbo
I don't care who fucking gets elected
I just want a plane waiting at andrews AFB
to haul bush cheney away
give them twenty four hours to get out of town
preferrably to the the world court to be tried for war crimes

Hillary wants to obliterate Iran to pretect poor little israel
as if israel don't have enough nukes to obliterate mesopotamia on her own.

Still pissed at Kerry for sleep walking through the 2004 election
even if he is a better man than me
I want to send Obama a case of no doze.

well that's it
talk at you later
got to walk the dog
man he is getting so old
his back legs getting weak
and I am scared
I don't want to loose him
I could not stand to be alone again.
twenty seven years since I had my last pet

[constantine]

wow. i just read through this thread, and i know whereof you speak. i like your political observations truck. and jim's ongoing struggle is one i continue to engage in. addiction is a major theme and bane of my tawdry existence. i'm cleaner now than i've been in 40 years and moderately happy - though there's still a soft spot in my head and heart for maryjane.

[stilltrucking]

Thanks Dino, I appreaciate your comments.
The first time I met jim on the Internet I felt like I had know him a long time. Like someone I knew in high school and lost track of, you too homeboy.

I wish I had not said "poor little Israel"
it would have been enough just to say

Hillary wants to obliterate Iran to pretect Israel.

Hillary obiously pandering to the Jewish vote. But I don't understand why a couple of million votes should be that important. Is she pimping for money? Or is she a closet Christian Zionist?

Exciting day jim, rode in the rain today for the first time, quite a thrill.
I am still buzzing from the experience, or maybe it is the tea?

[constantine]

you were speaking the truth. israel does have enough weaponry to obliterate mesopotamia. we bitch and moan about the proliferation of nuclear armaments, but considering our track record we are more likely to use them than any other nation. no politician has the integrity to not play the ruff and ready war card. thank god that we are not the sole possessors of the bomb - it keeps our insatiable greed a little bit in check - a little bit! nice talking to you homeslice.

[gypsyjoker]

Thinking about that old song
that was a tough neighborhood
but we were rough and ready guys
but oh how we coul harmonize.

those ethnic neighborhoods in B'more,
That big eastern orthodox church on eastern just down from broadway
that was a spooky place for me those
priests in their black robes and beards
go a few blocks and you were in Italy
the nuns in those big black habits like witches to me
in my grandmothers superstitions
how that womon loved me
always watching out for me that no one put the evil eye on me.

I only hurt the ones I love
I punched hard at jimbo
I don't know what I can do to make amends
you handle yourself so cooly
where I got hysterical
I deflected my anger
against a that sucker
the bully professor
and turned it on jimbo
cause I would never raise my hand in anger against jimboloco
you probably have no clue what I am talking about
and I don't want to mention that guys name
but "arrivaderci roma"
I let him punch my ticket
trip my trigger
make myself to be a fool

I can't go there no more
that black pit of anger
that knows no bottom
that murderous rage
so I found a safe target
but I hurt jims feelings

I don't know what I can do to make amends
not hi jack his thread would be a good start I suppose

smoked my brains out last night jim
can you tell?
I sent you a private message.

[constantine]

it is easy to get baited; i try to keep in mind that the bait is an indication of character and taking it merely gives nourishment to those that are trying to feed their own neurosis. i try not to inflict my neurosis on others intentionally; they've got enough to contend with. i usually let my poetry do the talking, and transmute my emotions to art when possible - or plot revenge of various shades and hues. many have suffered in the dungeons of my imagination!

[gypsyjoker]

Jimbo I got a new camera
still ain't figured out how to use it

The Agony of De Feets



Constantine:
That sounds like the best way to deal with it.

He is a brilliant writer
he has so many voices that sound the same
He is a scholar and posts insightful comments here, I like having him around and I have compassion for his pain. His ego is eating him alive but at least he is enjoying every bite.

I suppose what hurt me the last time is how he back edited his posts after I had replied. It seemed un-ethical.

I don't have a problem with him anymore
I was so much older then
I am younger than that now
So these days I just appologize to him
Doreen don't understand why
I tell her it is a guy thing.

He scares me quite a bit
I am a coward
I have always been a coward ever since east baltimore

FYI
A message I got about him a few years ago.
He sounds like a real desperado, don't he.

This may sound strange, but the person who once went as perezoso on this board has been making a series of escalating threats against both me and my wife. I believe we've discovered his identity--narrowed it down to two possible suspects--but before we do anything, my lawyer wants me to find confirmation. I'm a graduate student, and if correct, then he lives within 10 miles of me and my wife. You can understand why someone so unstable making these threats would be a concern to us. Esp. when they come in batches of 30 or 40 a day. If you could confirm his identity for us, howsoever you feel comfortable (first name, last initial or vice versa), that way you can be sure that you are not fingering an innocent man, I would appreciate it. Best,

[Doreen Peri]

Jack -

He's not a brilliant writer. And he's not a scholar either.

What he is is a riot instigator. And a person has so little self esteem that he somehow gets some sick personal high out of saying ugly things to other people.

I don't know who you're quoting but I need to know. If he was using the studio eight software to threaten someone as this quote indicates, it is illegal and if something illegal was being done on my software, I need to know.

Please send me the information about who sent this to you and when you received it. Thanks.

[gypsyjoker]

He writes some good stuff, I kind of like having him around.

What makes me nauseous is when men here get into pissing contests with him, men who I would expect more of.


That message was from November of 2005

[jimboloco]

and then there is oral deflection
i must be a master baiter


we are back from dizzywerlde
i am out of pot canyou tell?
time to call the medicine man
and bargain a toke out of the glass pipe

greetings to constantine

like my mystical chaplain buddy says
take the path of not knowing

and oh boy
let us all be bringers of joy!!!

ps, aubrey huff (n puff) the first baseman for the baltimore orioles,
who was traded to them away from the tampa bay rays
said some creative complaints about his new hometown
and got soundly booed by the fans
only now they are atop the eastern diviision
and the rays beat the redsox three straight!!!!!!!!!

i am out to the yard to milk a toke

doreen
i do not feel unsafe about this thread

i drank 4 miller lights at the ballgame last week
so did my wife
she fell into bed naked
and she alweays wears her chastity panties
prosit!

good to be bAck home at the studio
with my old ad new friends

keep yer feet up
have a toke! blow some smoke

i noticed that when off of pot i get anxious at times

we were on the bus loaded with families goint to the sprind garden and flower festival at epcot

the bus driver said on the mike
"bush is sending us a tax rtebate to stimulate the economy,
come back here and spend it!"

and there was this dad sitting there with his kid, dad wearing a t-shirt
that said,
"FREEDOM ISN'T FREE!"

and i blurted out,
"YEAH< WE HAD TO BORROW FROM THE CHINESE TO PAY FOR IT!"
my wife got wombarrassed, but i thought it was a creative complaint!

now for my toke. (the canadians thought it was funny )

ps ST yer feet look healthy
no edema
no cellulitis
you a soul bro

[gypsyjoker]

The only person I felt safe going down into that abyss of rage with was you jim. I am not a buddha yet, but maybe one day.

I am sorry i lashed out at you like that,

NIETZSCHE'S ETERNAL RECURRENCE:
REDEMPTION THROUGH STYLE

moron that later

I have hardly read your reply, just skimmed
beback alter
duty calls

thank you for being a friend.

[jimboloco]

i must be weeping and nashing
but there's no grinding going on
my karma

milked the pipe
a twig soft into it, pushed forward
a blob of sweet oils, mercy, it was sweet,
got into a mood, called the medicine man,
they had the day off
gonna smoke a bud
and lock it up
for 3 days

then next monday the eagle has landed

Good grief, it is what it is,
an impossible chasm,
Going in! Flaming out!
“frohe Botshafter”

toking out, folks
moron this later
i am alive and toking my time
out back now for this sublime day,
celebrate my pipe, do some tai chi.

tomorrow back to th jewel mines.

ogden nash wrote a poem

• pot
  is
  not

my mom showed it to me as a kid
we all smoked pot after the folks had gone upstairs
my sister and brother
sitting on the couch
passing a joint

good memories
days of post-vietnam \post air farce
blues
and old briggs stadium
sitting in the left field bleachers
deep green
quiet
everywhere
in the summer afternoon sun
and shadows

there was no game
i wasn't present
just sitting with th old folks
suffering in peace

[gypsyjoker]

no grinding here jim
I was trying to get away from that woman
and you kept bringing me back into
she accused me of hate
and taunting
but you know
it was her.

i am a nice guy jim
never hit a woman
if you don't count the time I tried to strangle my mother.

[jimboloco]

grinding creatively
si se puede
the only way is forward
tomorrow to work
wading thru fears and limits
what is natural to me
lady jane
it's now back in my ww2 olive army-airfarce box
locked and loaded
for another day

moms can be trippy