dear jimbo:
yeah, love & worry
are at melting point
most of the time
(you sound here like my father...!
)
and yeah, we are all as we are
maybe too much of this, too less of that
in this valoration valley
it´s ok
& unique
& all things have at least two sides.... & more!
& there´s also something
like an internal? tester
that makes you know
-for whatever causes or reasons-
what is somehow vital for you at some moment.
An year ago
to deeply be aware of & accept
that I can be also touchy & too much vulnerable & reactive
was a hard step for me
& now I´m more in re-connect
with what I call "my vague faith in everything"
but knowing already from experience
that when it´s necessary
it can be also easily focused...
& humor...
well, it´s always a great desdramatizante & expansive exercise!
may you have sweets dreams, dear friend
and if you have to sit in the middle of the night...
well..., just sit!
& sleep in the mornings, why not?
now you can do it!!
my multicolored sanghas??
the planet, my family, my job-schools, my friends, s-8, an small group where we chant-sing-and do tao-of-voice-exercises & sound healing once a week, another small group at my home doing meditation, various readings (and of course eating!) on wednesdays and maybe I´ll return to the zen dojo once a week (love the sounds, noises & silences spaces there)
http://www.zen-deshimaru.com.ar/rosario/home.php but this time "a mi manera...! " (hey!, I´m not japanese..., looong sesshins are not good for my ankles, back, circulation & paciencia...
)
