Dream Time Homer
Posted: June 6th, 2005, 6:38 am
I have an Audio Book of the Iliad, three one-hour tapes; usually I am asleep before I hear the whole thirty-minute side. Thinking about Cecil's stream and the influences on our unconsious minds. The anger of Achilles maybe that is another reason why I have been so pre-occupied with anger lately. I dreamt about Clay but now I sit here and write this I realize it was not Clay, it was a friend of mine from Virginia. Just a physical resemblance to Clay. In the dream my friend from Virginia kept reciting the Iliad, I could not get a word in edgewise. He was like that; he could talk up a blue streak. I was getting angry, but it was not that he was quoting the Iliad it was as if he was making a point how much more he knew than me. The guy was like that. He had to feel superior. We were both busting our ass at the truck stop for five dollars and seventy-five cents an hour. I told him about the part time computer work I was doing for fifteen bucks an hour. He put it down, said he used to get thirty dollars an hour when he worked on computers. He knew a lot but it was getting pretty dated. After he died his sister gave me a lot of his computer stuff. I have been thinking about donating it to the Smithsonian. She told me the circumstances of his death. One morning she went down to his little travel trailer and he did not answer the door knock. Eventually she went in and found him in a stupor, sounded like kidney failure. She called 911 and the cops and EMS came. The EMS was trying to get him in the ambulance but the cops would not let them. They may have seen something suspicious (he smoked weed) they were treating it like a crime scene by the time they let the EMS have a go at him, he was dead. I wonder what my blood sugar is tonight. Usually when I have a nightmare it is very high.
Sleeping and listening, in my dream I was trying to get that voice to stop, and I woke up to and realized it was the tape playing. The feeling was like the one I used to get when I dreamed about driving a truck. And I would wake up and realize that I was driving a truck. It got so bad sometimes I could talk in my sleep on the cb radio. One time around Van Horn I was hammer down talking to the driver in the truck ahead of me. It was a flat bed hauling a helicopter. I asked the guy where he picked it up at and he did not know what the hell I was talking about. I did a slow fade to consciousness and saw that I was behind a truck with those stainless steel doors that look like mirrors. My headlights reflected back to me. I suppose it was more highway hypnosis than sleep.
brings to mind that starry night on Soldier Summit, I remember now what focused my attention on the black nothingness as I came around that curve. A feeling of a razor thin sheet of glass passing through my Abdomen A feeling of being cut in half.
Sleeping and listening, in my dream I was trying to get that voice to stop, and I woke up to and realized it was the tape playing. The feeling was like the one I used to get when I dreamed about driving a truck. And I would wake up and realize that I was driving a truck. It got so bad sometimes I could talk in my sleep on the cb radio. One time around Van Horn I was hammer down talking to the driver in the truck ahead of me. It was a flat bed hauling a helicopter. I asked the guy where he picked it up at and he did not know what the hell I was talking about. I did a slow fade to consciousness and saw that I was behind a truck with those stainless steel doors that look like mirrors. My headlights reflected back to me. I suppose it was more highway hypnosis than sleep.
,Empty forks,
in my belly
brings to mind that starry night on Soldier Summit, I remember now what focused my attention on the black nothingness as I came around that curve. A feeling of a razor thin sheet of glass passing through my Abdomen A feeling of being cut in half.