Studio8 - Uniting the Arts

Yes,

"But, eh... I’ve always kind of been partial to calling myself up on the phone and asking myself out.


I’ll confess, you know, I’m no different, you know. I’m not weird about it or anything. I don’t tie myself up first, I just... you know. I just kind of... spend a little time with myself."

http://www.keeslau.com/TomWaitsSuppleme ... ife-ub.htm

OK then. That explains it.

yeah rice marks
but now she's got a new face
literally

I been thinking about a song called Polyester Bride.

I listened to a show about how girls plan their weddings, they got it all worked out they just need to find a guy who looks like Thomas E. Dewey in a tux to put on top of the wedding cake.

I don't know how you are doing KD okay I hope. I been thinking about kerouac and something Nietzsche said about not taking the artist as serious as his work.

I sometimes think about his daughter as iphigenia. Sad story. But he wrote such beautiful books.
I suppose he loved her the best he could. Still sad.
Jan Kerouac Baby Driver. A homage to her mother check it out sometime. I love mother daughter stories. Sometimes I think of The Bell Jar as a mother daughter story.

I didn't bond with mine
I used to wonder where her maternal
instinct was
she washed dishes
it's not a lot to a child
she was everything soft to my Dad though
and bah, doesn't matter to me

"The mother is the first awesome miracle that haunts the child his whole life, whether he lives within her powerful aura or rebels against it."
The Denial of Death. Ernest Becker
http://faculty.washington.edu/nelgee/le ... ghes_1.htm

Plath as Medusa's daughter

"Some women devour their daughters" Can't remember where i read that.

Everyone carries within him an image of woman that he gets from his mother; that determines whether he will honor women in general or despise them, or be generally indifferent to them. Human All Too Human

Nietzsche quoted in “Nietzsche and The Feminine”
An anthology

I still don't understand "eternal return"
so much I don't get about everything not just nietzsche.

To see my life as it is now
as it was always meant to be
Mostly I try to help my sister.
Something I promised our mother on our death bed.

that is what I love about doreen
she will always call me out if she don't get me
makes me think

Ecclesiastes my favorite
no not the right word
the book I have read and read

A dead link, I'll try it later.

She didn't exactly devour me
No, she held such little passion for her children
and it gave her more energy to bestow on my Dad.
She worried he'd lose interest or something whacko
and there wasn't much left over for us.

We heard all sorts of fun comments about husbands first, children last.

What matters is what your father says...

you know that sort of unintentional belittling.
nonexistent children
I persist to exist.
10 steps matter little.

And I'm rambling.

The best memorable image
Mom doing dishes
Dad chasing me down with belt
her never looking from the sink
and she was humming some sweet church song.

I'm nuts.

and I stil can't spell it

Ten old people living here
one old man and nine old women
they used to come to me like I was Solomon
tell me of their complaints about each other
I stay out of their spats
try to see both sides
Least they unite against their common enemy
men
kind of joking about that

One has a crush on me
she keeps buying me little things like sunday paper and candy
I beg her not to
but she gets so sad
tells me it makes her happy
"please don't take a way my joy"
I need to recipricate more
Sometimes I buy her oranges
but not in a while
she is on a fixed income
I am going to go buy her some oranges now while I think of it.

I don't unite and I don't join causes.
I think I'm too self-centered.

missed your reply again
going to buy some oranges for my neighbor
check the link when I get back