healing

[creativesoul]

there were days when I could not get out of my chair
i kept looking at what seemed like endless despair
broken hearted and lonely
what I missed was something that had never really been in the air
i was everything and nothing, he was just there

i rose one morning and looked in the mirror
and wondered how i could have done this
he was never a winner
with all the sucesses and good things that have happened
he could not stand it
he just wanted me to make him dinner

my face emerged with a tired look
since then i have come alive
my sensous soul is back in full bloom
all the greatness of having my own room
i like sleeping in the center of the bed
i like eating when i am hungry
instead of when someone else needs to be fed

i love myself again
and pity him
because all his lights have since grown dim
my garage has become an art studio
instead of a grease monkey s nightmare
i laugh sometimes at how good it is now
there is nothing to say

frayed and tarnished i wanded in your shadow
your abusive prison language made me cower
suddenly the freedom of a warm shower is worth more to me than the effial tower

[stilltrucking]

Thanks
for writing
for keeping in touch

You sound like you are on the mend.

[SmileGRL]

bravesoul...enjoy the sun on your face & bloom

[goldenmyst]

Creativesoul, sometimes I think the concept of marriage should be reinvented. Your courage inspires me. I find hope for all in your daring to make a new life for yourself.

John