Kill me if you need to

[Doreen Peri]

I’ve made mistakes in life.
Can’t go back to reverse them.
There’s no Time Machine!
No way to disperse them.

They remain in memory
Like a documentary.
So I try to sleep
While I curse them.

If I hurt you, I’m sorry,
It wasn’t my intent.
My life is almost over
This was how it’s spent.

Am I a bad person?
Who the hell knows.
I tried. No lie.
The devil’s exposed.

Kill me if you need to.
I deserve it, I suppose.

[mnaz]

You're not a bad person. We make mistakes and we might be a bad person for awhile (wear it, own it), but if our heart is usually in the right place, you live to fight (or make peace) another day

[Doreen Peri]

Some people might think I am, but of course I’m not. I’m a good person. It’s just a poem written to the people who don’t care about me anymore. lol … I’m ok. Just tried to write a poem for a change. That’s how I started 30+ years ago— rhyming. I should write songs. Anyway thx for reading and for your kind comment.

[mnaz]

I'd dig it if you were the word dancer again. We have our styles and I have to confess, I miss Litkicks. Levi had a powerhouse going for awhile.

[Doreen Peri]

Yeah it was great! I think litkicks was a public forum for maybe 2 years. It started out being his blog, then he opened up forums where we all met. Two years I think, he kept it open.

Studio8, on the other hand, has been open for over 20 years. I can’t remember the date offhand, oh yeah… July 2004… it’s been a long long long time!

No comparison to the sites. People here got their own forums (art logs/studios)… we added artwork ad music forums. It was a lot of work and whole lot of fun! WordJams!! Events! It’s been a great run. I sure do miss Judih and all her help. And I miss my son, eyelidlessness, who helped for a while, and of course I miss Lightning Rod (Clay) but here we are 22(?) years later and we still have a good jam going on with our regulars like you. Sure wish I had met you in person one day! I met a lot of people here. Many!! But not you yet unfortunately.

Anyway I’m always going to be the Word Dancer… see? Here I am dancing words in public again! It’ll never end

Love ya, Mark! Thx for your talents and support and participation!

[sasha]

This poem says something I deal with almost daily - the self-doubts, the endless replaying of old verbal mishaps, and the unresolved issue of who the asshole really was. "Was it me after all? Was he/she right and I was totally in the wrong? But what about....??" The old "what I shoulda said" game. I like the idea that it could be a song lyric. And it's good seeing you back in action!

[winddance]

reflections not always pretty
put a finger in the water
watch the ripples change it
and relax

[sonofthesun]

So many things! Day to day.
If you are trying it’s perfect.
Know it’s all a crap shoot.
Nobody hits the bulls eye every time
The beauty of life is we just are