looking forward to the truth

[creativesoul]

my roomate has been gone for two months, she fell in love. for her, this is alot like losing a limb in a land mine. She left her vechicle there and expects to come home and money grub me for funds to return, she arrives on the train on march 13th.
all of us here are dreading her return, her snippy control oriented remarks, her lack of enthusaism for any event where she is not the center of attention is just plain dangerous. I guess when you are her age and have not really done anything interesting in your life it is easy to try to pull energy from other people.- or without a well of water on the inside, you seek to drink other peoples. I remember once when we still liked each other laughing with her, and i remeber when she got grumpy. my laughter certainly did not make it any better. i guess when you laugh at how life keeps giving you alot of amazingly good material for a novel- well it makes really serious paople mad.i am still not sure what she is so serious about. love is wonderful, yet at a certain piont the things which once made it the only thing that matters- switch up and love is a state of mind. i sit here eating ginger candy chews and not smoking for two weeks. she is the type that thinks smoking at 62 is fun. i never really thought it was fun, i thought tabacco saved my sanity a few times.
maybe
and then again maybe not.
i have a freind that was getting her Masters degree and she went to a turettes convention where 200 people were periodicly shouting strange things uncontrolably into the convention hall. she wanted to be a counselor'---- i do not know what happened, if she became one or not..... i had another friend that liked to slice up people s brains and study pathology and biology and her whole family donated thier brains to science. i asked her how she knew the briains were going to be healthy. seeing as how they were family memebers and all.that s what i mean about having a sick sense of humor.
at any rate i do not know if i will have sex on the living room couch before she gets home. i hope so

[joel]

i like the style here, the flow of thought and storytelling. it's powerful to give short entrees into the people around the narrator, providing depth without providing detail. i would really like to see where this leads, the conversations that would arise when the roommate returns, the interactions with these and other characters--but at the same time, i like the shortness of it and the ambiguities on the borders. very creative.