smoke

[creativesoul]

i have an angel in the next room, kids are watchinh shrek three. my mother called shitfaced as usual, why did i think it would be different. i told her, i donot want to talk about why i got fired, it is christmas eve and i want to stay in denial of my warm and fuzzy family.my son flew in from san fran and his beautiful tall girlfreind that plays bass and loves him came by and i said yeah take the car, we need to take my mom back to the nursing home at 2 tommorow, i met her dad. i loved it. the moon is so beautiful in the sky this evening, and i feel the love.i am happier than i have ever been in myentire lifetime, which means of corse there is trouble ahead. i have a sore throat from smoking and i am going to put a patch on and pray i can quit before all this self destruction catches up to me. it is a race with time= the angel in the next room has oxegen in her nose and has been clean and sober 43 years, she is 77.if she crosses into the spirit world that is ok but will and mght be sad. i love this tenderness, i love God
sometimes god is in the smoke

[Arcadia]

feliz navidad c-soul!!!!!!!! we had a peaceful night with soft music and floating candles and not a visible angel in the next room this time. Bruno was sobre-exited and Emilia sleepy. And at twelve Bruno asked why Papá Noel only toca el timbre here and he doesn´t stay a little... well, he´s five (maybe it works for two more years!). I´ll sleep two more hours.