trip logic
Posted: November 6th, 2008, 5:39 pm
SISTER IN LAW
the bells in her voice & the way she knits her r's into jersey'd sounds made me trust her. for a second. such a silly second. and she used it against me with a smile on her face & yes, still, that bells ringing, clinging, tingling in my ears…
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MOTHER IN LAW
she bites me with my own name like i'm the sour apple in the bag…
***
HUSBAND
he says it's because i'm not blood
he says it's because i'm weak
& he does it with a hug…
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OTHER SISTER IN LAW (the one i like…)
she says it's because i'm strong
it's because i'm too nice
it's because he's proud of me
***
ME
how did i get here?
but more importantly, why do i? put myself here everyday
***
MORE ME
i don't know if the problem is that i trust too easily
that i expect too much from others
or that i try too damn hard
or maybe it's all of the above
the bells in her voice & the way she knits her r's into jersey'd sounds made me trust her. for a second. such a silly second. and she used it against me with a smile on her face & yes, still, that bells ringing, clinging, tingling in my ears…
***
MOTHER IN LAW
she bites me with my own name like i'm the sour apple in the bag…
***
HUSBAND
he says it's because i'm not blood
he says it's because i'm weak
& he does it with a hug…
***
OTHER SISTER IN LAW (the one i like…)
she says it's because i'm strong
it's because i'm too nice
it's because he's proud of me
***
ME
how did i get here?
but more importantly, why do i? put myself here everyday
***
MORE ME
i don't know if the problem is that i trust too easily
that i expect too much from others
or that i try too damn hard
or maybe it's all of the above