why

[creativesoul]

i keep journals, i have 17 years worth. I just happened to open one from two years ago and realised I was in an abusive relationship for the whole three years, everything I have read has shown me that these characteristics are often difficult to detect. I was feeling "stupid" when I called the domestic violence place and she said" you are not stupid, even doctors and lawyers get beat up"
I got the restraining order although he still stalks me.The dogs are quite informative. now I want to move in a big hurry.I feel paranoid here.I want to be somebody else, anyone else. Greta Garbo or Mary Pickford.
I think cohabitation is over rated. I am so sad. I wish it would stop.
How could I hve been so ignorant, so in denial?
life goes on. It is springtime. There are wonderful loving people in my life. I have much to look forward to-I have puppy and a wolf and three cats, although Sam likes to hang out with the people next door that have a pee wee herman front yard.I do not have to ever go thru this again

[mtmynd]

Your choice of Greta Garbo would be a good one. She was a recluse in her older age... perhaps something that would pique your present interest away from the gawdawful situation you're currently in. Can you speak in a deep sexy voice that casts spells over the innocent?