Path
Posted: June 1st, 2009, 1:08 pm
I remember telling you once
I felt as though I were running from something.
I barely knew you then, and yet somehow you disarmed me in a way I'd never been taken apart before. It was truly as though I'd always known you, yet we were finally meeting for the first time.
I, miserable, lost, confused- I met you and lost my senses.
Long before I fell ill to this condition that haunts me permanently,
long before I realized I'd been looking for you all my solitary years,
long before I had the courage to understand the relationship I'd been in for almost half my life was dead and disintegrated,
You stepped into my life in the form of a friend.
I grew sick, suffered, struggled through the confines of hell and trekked my way back from the bowels of the underearth. Fought my way back to health, a better sense of self.
Though physically you weren't there, somehow your presence was nestled into me. You knew everything I endured, my new limitiations, my pain. You words, with your well wishes, your support- they reached me.
With time I came to see the clarity in things. I changed my life, let go of all that was harming me, the relationship that was holding me back. In my heart I pined for you in a way I had never anticipated. Never once did I ever think you could feel for me what I to you, and I longed for you, my soul bleeding. You never knew.
Yet somehow, be it through a higher force, through destiny or some enchanted miracle brought to life- in time, we fell into each other.
I- broken, recovering, suffering.
You- beautiful, giving, tender.
We love one another, and the shock of writing these words still hits me with an electric pulse that shakes my system to the core.
I remember telling you once
I felt as though I were running from something.
I realize now, I was on this long, steady path-
I'd been running to you all my life.
LT
6-1-09
I felt as though I were running from something.
I barely knew you then, and yet somehow you disarmed me in a way I'd never been taken apart before. It was truly as though I'd always known you, yet we were finally meeting for the first time.
I, miserable, lost, confused- I met you and lost my senses.
Long before I fell ill to this condition that haunts me permanently,
long before I realized I'd been looking for you all my solitary years,
long before I had the courage to understand the relationship I'd been in for almost half my life was dead and disintegrated,
You stepped into my life in the form of a friend.
I grew sick, suffered, struggled through the confines of hell and trekked my way back from the bowels of the underearth. Fought my way back to health, a better sense of self.
Though physically you weren't there, somehow your presence was nestled into me. You knew everything I endured, my new limitiations, my pain. You words, with your well wishes, your support- they reached me.
With time I came to see the clarity in things. I changed my life, let go of all that was harming me, the relationship that was holding me back. In my heart I pined for you in a way I had never anticipated. Never once did I ever think you could feel for me what I to you, and I longed for you, my soul bleeding. You never knew.
Yet somehow, be it through a higher force, through destiny or some enchanted miracle brought to life- in time, we fell into each other.
I- broken, recovering, suffering.
You- beautiful, giving, tender.
We love one another, and the shock of writing these words still hits me with an electric pulse that shakes my system to the core.
I remember telling you once
I felt as though I were running from something.
I realize now, I was on this long, steady path-
I'd been running to you all my life.
LT
6-1-09
