still doin' the love thing, it'll pass soon :o)

[keithalanhamilton]

what is or to have been

1
so much time has passed away
too much history to overcome
way to many obstacles, and yes
you and me, we’ve lived, very
very different lives since then
when our chance slipped on by
2
can’t turn it all back now, gone
not to be the way it could have
or should have been, you and me
loving each other as no one else
sharing our hopes and dreams
building a life together, our way
3
being sorry or hurt won’t matter
hoping for what’s not, pointless
won’t help to change anything
still, our love was not a waste
as if to be lost without meaning
or be remembered or nurtured
4
we can love from afar, waiting
until our chance to meet alone
share what moments we have
enjoying the best we can, love
lived void of having judgment
despite what is or to have been


loved in return

love another, yes I really have without
question or doubt, I knew it to be, I felt
love deeply from the heart of my soul
and yet, another loving me the same, I
never knew or felt being loved in return
nor did I realize being loved when it came
finally, after awhile love was there, real
giving back to me as much as I gave it
sweet and tender, caring and kind, love
understanding, letting me be just me
accepting my character, taking in stride
my highs and lows, as well as my oddity
I was loved, and now I’m not only in love
giving it my best, I’m also loved in return


love for another

more to life than just love, I mean
being in a relationship with another
taken me awhile to appreciate that
loving someone ain’t the standard
nor the end all for living a life, see
life not just loving, mating and family
why do these things have to be some
ultimate measure of self-worth, well
listen, life doesn’t gotta be that way
fulfillment in life not dependent on
the love thing, maybe the sex thing
understood we have to procreate
yet, the sex thing not so about love
it’s about survival through attraction
right, add a little infatuation and bam
you got a family to occupy your time
now too busy to reflect on self-growth
gettin’ a hobby, be all that you can be
discover your potential, all lost within
caring for others, consumed by the love
thing, ain’t doin’ another grand, only
if it’s a choice, not some horny mistake
all paying the price of sex through time
pretending to be in love for the rest
for the family, for the priest, for one’s
self-image, whatever, what the scam
more to life than just the love thing
I mean, as far as a relationship with
another, learn about self and living
before a façade of love confuses you
only to emotively possess your soul
falsely based on a standard not true
learn to love yourself first and maybe
love for another will be like the topping
of a life fully lived in the course of time