Simple sin of ardent lust

[Lucy!]

Thoughts unintelligible
understandable in their cryptic language
tenebrous existence

I miss your friendship
your presence
I shiver between these lonely sheets
where your head lay on my heart
My mind mourns for mornings
where our eyes used to meet

I am no longer in love with you
yet I ache for the time
when our lives were aligned

Love is a concept
like religion
wonderfully hopeful
but terribly tragic
inflicts pain and torment
with simple sin
and profound penetration

There is no ownership of this intangible loyalty

Love is transitory
like seasons
melting into each other
Your faith is not mine
My devotion no longer yours
The beauty of our lives
produced by that which cannot be seen
So that love is a flower that wilts
Resigns itself when the freshness is gone
dies
Weedy heart of sadness
Reborn in a patch among new blooms
past forgotten
love anew

Love is fragile and beautiful

I’ve lost faith in the forever of love
Love is sacred
but mortal as you and I
There can be no promise
of eternity of an emotion
we ourselves are not eternal
Our spiritual space can be intertwined
yet no perpetual pledge of piety
can be made
to assure the always of affection

There is no winning in love
merely different states of loss

I miss the warmth of your being
If only you hadn't hurt me so
left me flailing in the storm
if only you would have valued my importance
cherished my devotion

if only you hadn't

let my love for you

d i e


II


I had sincerity living between my aching lips
I had raw love fermenting in my eyes
I begged for you
Slit my soul in search of serenity
while you slept in the shadows

I offered all

I offered my self
sliced my mind
sanguine saltiness
melding with sadness
sweet melancholic shores
of my dedication
washed into you
Yet my soul slipped
into the sands of stoic sin

You ripped yourself from me
questions unanswered
gradually faded from my life
dust amidst the storm
I closed my eyes
struggling to remember
why I loved you

and forgot

I crumbled into the ocean
I felt tainted and unloved

Months have passed
months lost in self-discovery
months
since our eyeslipsminds met

My spirit rolling around
on the rich earth of uncertainty

Ailing nights lingering on the thought of you
sobs tore the silence of my room
pining over our collapse
our ultimate beauty
flashing into nothingness

I lost you in ways my heart cannot endure

The tides have washed my love for you
into the infinite ocean
all that remains are wounds and scars
battles fought between my heart and mind

Meeting you again
our lives crashing
universal collision

My heart
no longer swells
your presence
no longer melts me
yet my curves whimper
for your caress

Tears dampen my face
a different sensation
rampant lust for you
and nothing more
exists in this loving heart of mine

My belief in true love
torn from my seams
So that it seems
that my wounded being
will no longer breathe

Your mouth whispering into my skin
I can smell your undying love against my soft form
I can taste the dry emptiness
of the well that once held my love for you
How I miss the color of your want
The depth of your desire

We
are more bruised than we ever were

There is no collective healing
No unified consolation between our bodies
Our lust cannot repair what is lost
disintegrated
I a flower who wilted in the cold of your absence

My soul is no longer yours
my heart does not pine for you

Slipping into your eyes
glazed with pain and struggle
crying into me
they flinch with the knowledge
that it is only you who loves me
and that I love you as my friend
although our bodies will eternally be lovers
our shapes our hands our curves
are meant for only the other

Metaphysical union of passion and earthy divinity

Why have I

let

you kiss

my lips

I kiss your mouth
Hold onto your body
with starving wildness

why have we

collided

Our desire for one another
bleeds through issues of right or wrong
Bleeds through familiarity
my heart no longer loves you
but my body still does

Atoms race
particles mingle
energy draws into the other
invisible lava
of the body

why

I don’t know

Your emotions are sacred
I don’t want to harm you with what I offer
an incomplete version of myself
packed heavily with everything
except romantic love
charged with all
except the very thing you want

My mind is too savvy
to fall for the trickery of carnality

...We have split in ways so abstract
our unification is no longer conceivable

Oh flurried emotion!
Oh bloodied deception!
How mangled my heart
so that faith in my rebirth
is dead

Oh frantic thirst!
Vext desire for your languid loving!
How inflamed my passion
so that ardent bodies
unite in the mist

Oh palpitating mind!
Oh precious thought and reflection!
How reeled my being
so that all sentiments crash
into the fire of our mystified forms

Ache for your friendship
Lust for your kinetic beauty
brings me to you

Perhaps we will never be severed from the other

No matter how many times we die


Lucy-
1-3-05

[hester_prynne]

Lucy Lucy LUCY!!!!!!!

How do you do it so well my dear girl.
I really just love this piece. First time around too! This one will be read many times over...so much is there, so much, I can relate to, but could never had said so beautifully.

You amaze me.
Thank you for this,
H

[Bryan]

this was just awesome I want to read it over and over and over again. generally I cant keep my attention for pieces this long but this was just great so full of emotion. I loved it