To Feel

[weepingwillow]

For the first time in 2 weeks
I felt my feet
When one touched my leg it felt cold
The numbness is getting old
To feel something, anything would be nice
Instead my body is like ice
Frozen in space
Memories i cannot erase

Your smile, your eyes
You touch me again
I despise this feeling
You make me feel
ALIVE....

When you are gone i am dead
Cannot move my body is lead
I just lay here in my bed
Trying to unravel my head
You have taken my breath
Is this what its like to die

Today i opened the zipper
Only to hear me whimper
Failure to sleep only makes me weak
But i awake every morning to a leak
From my eyes that craved you all night
Only in my sleep do i see you
But the pills make you disappear

The edge they take off
No one knows that i jumped off
The cliff in my head
Into deep abjectness
That is my likeness
I search for light
An opening to climb out

To say that time heals all is wrong
I have suffered all lifelong
The more that passes
The closer my body turns to ashes
Into the dirt i shall revert
This pain my body needs to desert

I long for the day my mind is at bay
When you no longer control my brain
My thoughts my emotions get out of my head
Please so I can get out of bed

[dadio]

Well woven poem with a melanchonic theme.