The struggles we share v.s the troubles we bare

[no1special]

I've been fed half-truths
for so long
how can you blame me
when I'm wrong

my interpretations
accusations
guesstimations

all I can do is imagine
what is up with you
with no information
I have no choice
but to use my imagination
guessing why you're sad
why you're mad

did you forget the past
or what we had

I just want to be
your partner
your lover
we together
could be
undercover

you are enough for me
believe me

if you dare
for you
deeply
I care

my love to you I give
completely

I can forgive
the ways
you've treated me

conceivibly
can you trust in me
to you
is it lust

no future for us
your obsession
old and sad
you threw away
all we had

your addiction
you shared
took
all my dreams away
I only live
for today

the high i chase
the pain
the guilt
I hope to erase

happiness I replace
with a syringe
it's my life
no longer a binge

[mnaz]

good capture of the pain unrequited love. i hope it is more metaphorical than real. honestly.

[Hollweg]

This is a very chilling piece and generally has a nice flow. The subject appears to me, in spite of protestations to the contrary, to know why the other is mad.

[neologistic]

this is very powerful. welcome to studio eight, please keep posting

[judih]

hey Number1special - do you have an audio clip of this piece?
would love to hear you perform it

[Doreen Peri]

no1special .... oh I see judih mentioned recording. Do you record your work?

About the poem....

happiness I replace
with a syringe
it's my life
no longer a binge

I found the last stanza quoted above to be particularly disturbing. I don't know you but I hope you're not involved in IV drugs. Dangerous lifestyle... mentally, physically, financially, and to your relationships.

Not trying to pry but you did put this out in public so that's my reaction to it.

Why not capture and embrace happiness with a healthy lifestyle? It's much more fun.