Blizzard 2003
Posted: January 20th, 2011, 10:07 pm
Atonement
I didn't know what this word meant
so I looked it up in the dictionary
I guess
I wouldn't know this word so well
not in this living hell
I call my life
I can't believe the lows
in which my life has taken me
a widow before I was a wife
this wasnt supposed to be my life
an amazingly talented beautiful girl
shoved into this whirl
of hardships
what happened
I dont even know
somehow I remember the snow
March 2003
is when he was taken from me
sleeping in a hospital chair
stay past visiting hours
his family didn't dare
cold scared and alone
I watched other families
for weeks there they would sleep
taking turns
sitting with their son or daughter
going to work keeping up apearances
quietly they would weep
in the corner of CCU
doctors nurses patients
rushing through
terrified to see him
the condition that he might be in
the fear that I might not recognize him
my best friend
my lover
if only I could look into his eyes
convince him not to leave
please
just wake up
moistened clumps of gauze
his eyes covered
a scrape on his face
reminds we why we are here
in this place
the very place
where I
myself
entered this world
the same place
our unborn child left us
just hours later
I would come to learn
this wil be the same place
in which I would lose my lover
too
lying in the grass next to your best friend
our mothers
screaming crying
my lover dying
begging someone else's heavely father
to let him live
if you take him
I will not forgive
we never got the chance
to live our life
it was stolen from us
before it had begun
I guess that's when I drew the line
my lover taken from me at 29
that is exactly when
it began to snow
my lover covered the ground
with four feet of snow
it was him
in my heart
I know
I knew he wouldn't leave this earth
quietly
rest in peace my love
D.E.M.
(11/27/73-3/10/03)
I didn't know what this word meant
so I looked it up in the dictionary
I guess
I wouldn't know this word so well
not in this living hell
I call my life
I can't believe the lows
in which my life has taken me
a widow before I was a wife
this wasnt supposed to be my life
an amazingly talented beautiful girl
shoved into this whirl
of hardships
what happened
I dont even know
somehow I remember the snow
March 2003
is when he was taken from me
sleeping in a hospital chair
stay past visiting hours
his family didn't dare
cold scared and alone
I watched other families
for weeks there they would sleep
taking turns
sitting with their son or daughter
going to work keeping up apearances
quietly they would weep
in the corner of CCU
doctors nurses patients
rushing through
terrified to see him
the condition that he might be in
the fear that I might not recognize him
my best friend
my lover
if only I could look into his eyes
convince him not to leave
please
just wake up
moistened clumps of gauze
his eyes covered
a scrape on his face
reminds we why we are here
in this place
the very place
where I
myself
entered this world
the same place
our unborn child left us
just hours later
I would come to learn
this wil be the same place
in which I would lose my lover
too
lying in the grass next to your best friend
our mothers
screaming crying
my lover dying
begging someone else's heavely father
to let him live
if you take him
I will not forgive
we never got the chance
to live our life
it was stolen from us
before it had begun
I guess that's when I drew the line
my lover taken from me at 29
that is exactly when
it began to snow
my lover covered the ground
with four feet of snow
it was him
in my heart
I know
I knew he wouldn't leave this earth
quietly
rest in peace my love
D.E.M.
(11/27/73-3/10/03)