LOOMING GRIEF.
Posted: January 22nd, 2011, 4:55 am
She knows Wildruff won’t
Be back; he’s run out of luck.
Or she has if he’s messed with
Some other bitch, the fuck.
She sits looking out to where
He usually comes, his heavy
Tread over the tundra, his
Head lowered as if in thought,
Some small trinket bought or
Stolen gift brought, she’s often
Thought. She feels as she sits on
The edge of the floor by door,
The looming grief, the big dark
Hole of his death, or hers inside
If he’s met and shafted some
Other two-bit mother. She holds
Back the words she means to say
In case the wind carries them off
Like chaff and they lose their proper
Meaning in the air. She’ll sit and
Stare. Think on his good points, his
Occasional merit, his humour. She
Sees nothing but the landscape,
The trees, fields, birds, sky and
Clouds like dead men’s shrouds.
She knows he’ll not return, she’ll
Bed alone tonight, embrace her own
Poor self, kiss her own arms, miss
His deep words, his shafting, his lies,
His love, his hate; she wants him back,
The fuck, no such luck, too late, too late.
Be back; he’s run out of luck.
Or she has if he’s messed with
Some other bitch, the fuck.
She sits looking out to where
He usually comes, his heavy
Tread over the tundra, his
Head lowered as if in thought,
Some small trinket bought or
Stolen gift brought, she’s often
Thought. She feels as she sits on
The edge of the floor by door,
The looming grief, the big dark
Hole of his death, or hers inside
If he’s met and shafted some
Other two-bit mother. She holds
Back the words she means to say
In case the wind carries them off
Like chaff and they lose their proper
Meaning in the air. She’ll sit and
Stare. Think on his good points, his
Occasional merit, his humour. She
Sees nothing but the landscape,
The trees, fields, birds, sky and
Clouds like dead men’s shrouds.
She knows he’ll not return, she’ll
Bed alone tonight, embrace her own
Poor self, kiss her own arms, miss
His deep words, his shafting, his lies,
His love, his hate; she wants him back,
The fuck, no such luck, too late, too late.