funny-reptile room 2

[creativesoul]

i thought that 'being close to you
was like a lucky bet
somehow i had convinced myself
i won
but what i lost was too great
so i had no other choice
i told myself that those things do not matter
that i would be ok with out you
maybe
maybe not
maybe the gamble was just the whole problem
wanting something so badly
knowing i should have cut my losses sooner
but i was a coward
felt i could not afford to lose
so i kept trying to believe in something
that was filled with lies and newcomer behavior
i lost what meant the most to me'

so i just walk
i trust
i heal
these things that change us
into someone we might not want to be
just to be free