Borrowing
Posted: October 24th, 2013, 1:01 am
Could I borrow your heart, borrow your soul,
borrow a part of your memories? Could I borrow
the sorrow you bled in the tears from your eyes,
the ceremonial extremities, frozen, stolen, unable
to bend, the way you misspent your time, the crimes
you didn't mean to commit? Can I borrow the moments
when you were able to admit your mistakes? What would
it take to borrow from you? Can I borrow what is overdue?
Can I borrow what is new and never yet used? Do you feel
abused by my request? If so, I'm quite sorry. That isn't my
intent. Can I borrow your resentments, your presence, your
events on the calendar you keep? Can I borrow the sound
of your breathing when you sleep as it creeps into my ear?
What can I borrow? Anything? I promise to return it when I can.
Can I borrow your thens and theres and whens and wants
and taunts of dreams that seem unreachable?
I will pay you interest. I promise. This is my promissory note.
Can I borrow what you promised you would have written or wrote?
I can promise you this. I will lend you anything I have ever had or
still have and lend it to you again and if you never pay it back,
I don't care. I'm sorry to ask to borrow a thing but please bring
me up in your thoughts when you're caught in a need.
You can borrow anything I have to plead with the present case
and if you need something from me which I don't own,
I will borrow it for you to lend it to you, then give it to you,
not as a loan, but as a treasure. Please don't lend me anything again
and if I must re-begin this verse, let it be a curse on my soul.
Nothing borrowed is nothing owed.
You will never need to repay.
And I, the dismal daughter of a fray
of fabric torn, mourn that I would owe a penny.
I hope I would never owe you any
thing but love. Could I borrow your heart
for just one fraction of a minute, a second perhaps?
Please not allow the lapse of my reasoning to cause you
to fret about the agreement since there is none.
I lend you myself completely.
No! I give you all I am neatly
wrapped in a silk scarf clutched to your chest,
the rest of me lingering beneath.
-dp.10.23.2013
borrow a part of your memories? Could I borrow
the sorrow you bled in the tears from your eyes,
the ceremonial extremities, frozen, stolen, unable
to bend, the way you misspent your time, the crimes
you didn't mean to commit? Can I borrow the moments
when you were able to admit your mistakes? What would
it take to borrow from you? Can I borrow what is overdue?
Can I borrow what is new and never yet used? Do you feel
abused by my request? If so, I'm quite sorry. That isn't my
intent. Can I borrow your resentments, your presence, your
events on the calendar you keep? Can I borrow the sound
of your breathing when you sleep as it creeps into my ear?
What can I borrow? Anything? I promise to return it when I can.
Can I borrow your thens and theres and whens and wants
and taunts of dreams that seem unreachable?
I will pay you interest. I promise. This is my promissory note.
Can I borrow what you promised you would have written or wrote?
I can promise you this. I will lend you anything I have ever had or
still have and lend it to you again and if you never pay it back,
I don't care. I'm sorry to ask to borrow a thing but please bring
me up in your thoughts when you're caught in a need.
You can borrow anything I have to plead with the present case
and if you need something from me which I don't own,
I will borrow it for you to lend it to you, then give it to you,
not as a loan, but as a treasure. Please don't lend me anything again
and if I must re-begin this verse, let it be a curse on my soul.
Nothing borrowed is nothing owed.
You will never need to repay.
And I, the dismal daughter of a fray
of fabric torn, mourn that I would owe a penny.
I hope I would never owe you any
thing but love. Could I borrow your heart
for just one fraction of a minute, a second perhaps?
Please not allow the lapse of my reasoning to cause you
to fret about the agreement since there is none.
I lend you myself completely.
No! I give you all I am neatly
wrapped in a silk scarf clutched to your chest,
the rest of me lingering beneath.
-dp.10.23.2013