blanket of denial
Posted: January 3rd, 2014, 11:12 pm
what if i had the guts
to write a poem that sliced open my chest
and you could look inside and see my innards
squirming alien life forms of truth bleeding out
on my floor
and what if you couldn't turn away
just kept looking too fascinated to call 911
or ask me where I keep the needles and thread
would you feel ashamed
by your morbid curiosity to stare at the pulsating
sins, excited like a voyeur peeping from the closet
through a crack in the bedroom wall, what if
you learned all the details of a lifelong fetish
would you pipe up, " how courageous", this exposure
or would you only see depravity , would you laugh
uncomfortably at this odd vulnerability
staring back into your eyes, could I count on you
to look inside yourself if need be, contain
your disillusionment, be a supportive friend
confess your own secrets or would you have finally seen
too much, need to divert your eyes
throw a blanket over my open wound
while you gaze at the ceiling and whistle
thinking to yourself, out of sight
out of mind
to write a poem that sliced open my chest
and you could look inside and see my innards
squirming alien life forms of truth bleeding out
on my floor
and what if you couldn't turn away
just kept looking too fascinated to call 911
or ask me where I keep the needles and thread
would you feel ashamed
by your morbid curiosity to stare at the pulsating
sins, excited like a voyeur peeping from the closet
through a crack in the bedroom wall, what if
you learned all the details of a lifelong fetish
would you pipe up, " how courageous", this exposure
or would you only see depravity , would you laugh
uncomfortably at this odd vulnerability
staring back into your eyes, could I count on you
to look inside yourself if need be, contain
your disillusionment, be a supportive friend
confess your own secrets or would you have finally seen
too much, need to divert your eyes
throw a blanket over my open wound
while you gaze at the ceiling and whistle
thinking to yourself, out of sight
out of mind