existential self pity

[sweetwater]

today must be the day
that day specific and enlightened to all
or most who have ventured towards
meaning and absence of philosophy
or just the absence of existentialism
hopefully we have designed the futile
question to be as such

the complete lack of anything real or tangible
much like someone standing

in one location and realizing that
he or she has no understanding as to who he or she is
or how the hell they got there in the first place

who am i - what is life - what does it mean
i only have being and being is nothing

i have achieved nothing and nothingness

maybe it is because as location bias
he or she hasn't moved in any other location
just standing there sort of thing all the time

as if the location as to where you are is actually nothing
as some sort of self hatred - existential self pity

as some would say
as what i am presently suffering from

and then there is this idea that existentialism is a noun
a topic and not a state of being and becoming at all

when everything seems to be flow and much more
to the idea of movement and verbs

and not existential at all

something more along the lines of extentsionism

how we extend to the world and the world extends to us

nothing extends itself to you as existentialist
so it seems

just the seeming profound sense of being and nothingness

i hope you have found this to be rather relative
to how you are feeling presently