Mood 9999999
Posted: March 6th, 2023, 9:18 am
I awake many times in a night
This is when tobacco is my friend
My dreams pull at me like salt water taffy
There is stardust in my bed
The moment when the playlist is redundant
And all those songs seem ridiculous
Until Bonnie riatt and i feel the same
And guilty
Yeah it’s been 37 years since I was a bad girl
But those voices never go away
My mind thinks because I’m so close to peru a big fat rail of cocaine would do the trick
But I know I have never had one rail
One drink
One pill
There was never enough shit to quench my little inner whore
So I just have to tell that bitch to shut the fuck up
I know other people that are wired for feeling nothing
So I am a little nutty
As I am just the d 2 9 alleles gene
Programed to find pleasure where there is none
Yet she speaks to me
Tells me she can fix me up
Yeah
I’m used to her now
I used to take orders from her
No more
But when the mood strikes for real
Nothing can stop a real drug addict
Not even the police
I know I get one reprieve every day
Just for today I will not sabotage myself
This is when tobacco is my friend
My dreams pull at me like salt water taffy
There is stardust in my bed
The moment when the playlist is redundant
And all those songs seem ridiculous
Until Bonnie riatt and i feel the same
And guilty
Yeah it’s been 37 years since I was a bad girl
But those voices never go away
My mind thinks because I’m so close to peru a big fat rail of cocaine would do the trick
But I know I have never had one rail
One drink
One pill
There was never enough shit to quench my little inner whore
So I just have to tell that bitch to shut the fuck up
I know other people that are wired for feeling nothing
So I am a little nutty
As I am just the d 2 9 alleles gene
Programed to find pleasure where there is none
Yet she speaks to me
Tells me she can fix me up
Yeah
I’m used to her now
I used to take orders from her
No more
But when the mood strikes for real
Nothing can stop a real drug addict
Not even the police
I know I get one reprieve every day
Just for today I will not sabotage myself