Bullshifting
((Primal mind...))Newborn human. Needs nourishment. All nourishing things... food, milk, warmth, touch, sounds... sensory newness seeking the new world surrounding he/her. All is new.
((First shift...))
"Ahhh... finally I understand. I have a pattern that I live within. I have this pattern I can relate to. I now have a sense of being a part of my own world, my own belief system, my own way of connecting to life. It's now my life. Thank goodness I now understand and this feeling is one of completeness. I've arrived...."
((Mind shift...))
"Within this 'me world' of mine I tried something different. I smoked my first marijuana cigarette. Wow. Things changed. There seems to be something else that's going on. I can't describe just yet but I know it's there... somewhere. My old pattern has shifted. Things have expanded. But how far do they go..? I ask myself these questions that my mind begs for..."
((shift into third...))
Time goes by... weeks, months, years. Putting things back together. New ways of seeing. New perceptions. Wow. I drop my first acid... LSD. Big wow. Damn! another shift of perception. "Keep calm. It's okay. What has been seen through all this is, yes, it's mind. But what isn't?" I ask myself... or is it my Self...? Curious. Very curious. There is so much 'out there'. So much "in here"... within.
Id, ego, super-ego... hmmm.... Sigmund. Yes, Freud. Naming levels within. I never really understood that one... those three levels. But it makes sense. Maybe. So much going on in this head... this mind of mine (mynd)... Perceptions. The way mind 'sees' all this matter all around... deciphering this and trying, trying to put all this newly experienced visions together. Rearranging the old paradigm. Reassembling the old patterns that no longer fit so easily into one pat answer. It takes me time.
((Paradigm shift...))
No one answer for mind and what it asks, what mind wants to know in order to bring order and understanding together. Mind needs this. Without understanding it... this world around that is sending messages thru the senses.. mind cannot continue its obsessive desire to know... know more, consuming information thru it's senses. Yes the mind's senses... the seeing, the hearing, the touching, tasting, smelling of this world. World of mind?? Which came first - mind or world that makes mind? No mind, no world? No world, no mind? Wait! Mind slow down. Too dizzying. Spinning, whirling, tossing opinions from one side to the other. Slow the fuck down, dammit!
((Ah! another shift...))
What's that? I hear those two words: no mind. Can't be. Isn't that all I am? All that 'we' are? Isn't this big collective mass of hu'manity, of which I'm surely part of, a bodily mass, a vase, if I will that contains mind. But why? Why, why, why??? Those are the ancient questions. Why this body, this place, this time? (There goes mind again.... damn! Is there no stopping this...this fucking mind eating away at ...? The ancients spoke of no mind. Somehow it alone, those two simple words, 'no' and 'mind' together sound so right. But how? If this world is all mind... hmmmm....
((Goddamn shifts!))
Drop mind? Just step away from mind? Crazy! I've heard of those people that lose their minds. It's nuts. Surely they can't be talking about losing the mind, these ancients. It's not right. Can't be. They say 'no mind'... not losing mind. What? Forgetting where you put it? Something more. Has to be. Can I find the answer with mind? Find this no mind with mind? Paradox. Maybe not. A mystery. Mind likes mystery. Takes mind to new places. But mind needs calm to find the answers. How to put aside all the sensory overload that spins mind around and around? Think about it! Concentration! One thing at a time. No need to get taken up into the vortex of confusion, of doubt, of fear that losing mind implies. Contemplation. Contemplate the ancient words... no mind. Could it be? Let the thoughts go. No mind... non attachment. All those thoughts... the questions, the possible answers, the emotional ups and downs... aren't they there because of mind's need to know? Intellectualizing this. Intellectualizing that.
((Major shift...))
No. Just let that river of thought run as it will. As it does. As it always has. Non-attachment to any of it. Until the thoughts just go without mind butting in, grasping onto this or that. No need. No mind. No desire. No attachment. Mind is not lost. I haven't lost my mind. I control mind. It's my tool. Yes. I need mind. Sometimes. Sometimes I can put it away and be. Yes. Just be. There is something beyond all that non-sense.. no one sense. No multiple senses delivering info to that mind. Mind needs a break. A rest. Mind is bodily connected. Body needs rest. Mind slows down. Relax. No mind. No bullshit. No thing. Yes. No thing. It's larger than mind will ever understand. No thing is beyond mind. Beyond mind's understanding. No thing to attach to. Mind needs thing to attach to.. to understand, to know, to consume. But this no thing is only had thru no mind. Meditation? Meditation. Ahah!
((O shift!!...))
All things: mind. No things: no mind. Connection! Two becomes one. Yin/yang. Duality. Necessary. Answer. One with another. Eternal partnership. Live with mind. Live with no mind. One feeds the other. Completeness. Wholeness. Holiness. Absolutely Absolute. Ease no. Balance now. Now is all. Not mind. Not no mind. But together. Balance. Either is addictive for the pleasure each provides. Stay easy. Non attachment to one or the other. Keep balance. Each provides. Both give... one yin, one yang. One mind. One no mind. Conjoined. No Mind knows. Mind understands. Now.
((Bull Shift))
No matter where I've been,
I'm always here.
No matter where I go,
I'm always here.
No matter the mind
I'm always here.
No matter no mind
I'm always here...
Now
Cecil
24 June 2007
no mind. no picture.
picture no mind.
picture no mind.
