Sunday Stream (153) ~ Awakefulness

[mtmynd]

[note: originally written 16 November 2003. today is the last day of the first show of the year.]

Awakefulness

Every thought expressed is a memory from the past. By the time a thought, an idea is said, is sung, is written, is shared... it is but a remembrance of what has already passed.

Creation is an afterthought. What happens to the other things that float by while Mind is engaged in analyzing, in constructing, in putting out the thought that captured us? We do not capture ideas, but Mind is captured by ideas to fulfill our potential. Our duality gives us choice of action/reaction.

Destruction is an afterthought... one that attempts to get the object of destruction out of being, out of existence. That object, either in matter or concept, becomes eliminated... destroyed. No longer in existence, but a memory... still alive, below the material, lying in wait to return... return afresh, renewed and ready for new times in some distant future, with perceptions dressing it with new possibilities.

The freshness of thought, the memories of past rely upon Mind to stay alive. No matter how current, we are influenced by the past. Even with Nature, we are reminded of its beauty by the past - the ancient world of Nature that has given of itself to preserve the chain of Life.

We cannot escape from reacting thru or by the past. The past is always right before our eyes... taking in all that has been, all that exists, all that has existed thru the memory banks.

Even the future exists from the past... possibilities evolving out of things gone by, no matter how long ago. It could have been years, months, or even moments ago - but those things have passed.

So how do we live in the Now? Can we ever expect to be in the Now? To be in the Now is thru awareness of existence... observation without judgment. Seeing, feeling, experiencing life without choice, without grabbing at ideas, without intent, simply reflecting all things. No Mind.

Mind is the accumulation of past. Memory is the recall of accumulations that Mind has gathered. Mind seeks information to understand life and create possibilities... probabilities of purpose. Mind is witness to creativity. No mind is witness to Creation.

It has been asked: How long is Now? Now transcends time. Time is mind made, the measure of moments passed.The future is improvement over the past... not yet realized, the mind calculates that which is possible, that which may be probable, 'in the future' - that which is always on the other side of the mountain, the other side of the fence... waiting, luring imagination to continue on... maybe there is something better over there, maybe something that will assist in improving the present condition. The mind drives the past into the future. But the Now - Now is not past, Now is not future, Now is not time oriented. Now is beyond judgment, beyond choice, beyond duality. Now is eternal. Now is all there ever is, now.

Now is from where we came and Now is where we shall return, but until then we are given duality, that which is the Force of Existence maintaining the ongoing Mystery of Life.

We cannot ignore Mind, but only reduce its importance to fully become awakened to Now... and then we continue onwards into dualities to formulate our potentialities.

We have been screwed by Now, united with duality, the Yin and Yang grinding, humping each other in an eternal Orgasm , a Supreme Bliss that never ends... making Life, digesting Life, to sustain Life... the Passion of Existence coursing thru every cell of Life, each atom vibrating with the Cosmic Caress of Duality, dancing to the encoded message of its own potential to bring awareness thru Mind of its Wholly Fornication - Vitas Eruptus endlessly spewing the vibration of Now thru the Mind in a seduction of possibility to stretch Mind thinner and thinner, so it may expose more and more this Mystery that creates its very Existence behind its accumulative barriers of Past/Future, the duality of Be or not to Be... aware of Life. By acceptance we become aware and thru our awareness we ready our Being to join in the Union of Duality to give birth to our Individuality.

Cycles are not two dimensional but spiral-like, twisting and turning, reaching, groping for contact within the sea of consciousness, to be attracted to and attracted by our purpose, the fulfillment of individuality, (the indivisible duality), our duality of equality, so we may fuck and be fucked by the same energy that is fucking Life. We become aware of Now by engaging in Love with Life at every level - we become one with Existence by being in the Now.

Creativity happens by being in the Now. Now is not a mystery... we have all been in the Now - joined with creation we have been seduced and made one with the trinity of physiology, psychology and spirituality working in harmony with duality. It is only our 'awake-full-ness' that can be it.

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Cecil
02 March 2008

she holds canna lilies


photo: cecil. sculpture: unknown Mexican craftsperson.

[Artguy]

How fast is a thought?

[mnaz]

The last few chapters I've added to my "dust memoirs", since last summer (when I said I was "done"), have been about channeling the electric Now I went through in empty light and space-- indeterminate space lacking definition and markers, consumed in Now...

I remember Joe C. wrote that the story of Eden was about a "fall" into duality, the world of time and history and pairs of opposites, none of which existed in the "no-mind" garden of Now... (or something like that).. Where were we between thoughts?...

Anyway, interesting meander, Cecil. Thanx.

Here's the original thread (hope you don't mind):
http://www.litkicks.com/BeatPages/msgAr ... ead=86064&

[mtmynd]

artguy... fun question. got me to thinking...

mnaz - thank you for the reply. cool meander! and that link! had no idea that it was accessible. i enjoyed seeing that up again and again, thanks.

[Arcadia]

spiral cycles, yeah!

thanks for the stream, Cecil & saludos!!!!!!!!!

Arcadia

[mtmynd]

hola, amiga... me gusta los 'spiral cycles' mucho. gracias!

[stilltrucking]

RE: "How fast is a thought"
Maybe slower than a paint brush?

Edward Hopper quoted in an article in Parabola magazine. Night-Visitor, Edward Hopper's Night Hawks

"It's not hard to paint a design," Harper told me dolefully." "Nor to paint a representation . But to express a thought in painting that is hard. Why? Because thought is fluid. What you put on canvas is concrete, and this tends to direct the thought. The more you put on canvas the less of your original thought remains"

[mtmynd]

freeze a thought, it's no longer a thought.

[stilltrucking]

so a painting is a thought at abosolute zero.
a thought frozen in amber

and when it registers in the warmth of eye of the beholder
it thaws out and becomes a thought again?
beats me
I just like to blurt about art.

[mtmynd]

paintings are a series of thoughts compiled into composition.

[stilltrucking]

Maybe I been reading too much Bertrand Russell.
thinking about thinking
thinking about thought as biochemical
A thought is not a no thing
a thought is a thing
a painting as a thing
sentient beings created it
but there is more to this thing called life than thought.
For all I know thought may be an evolutionary dead end, thinking man, homo sapiens.

What the heck do I know about it cecil, I could not paint my way out of a sushi bar.

But I thought Hopper was talking about just one moment, one nano second or what ever the speed of the biochemistry going on in the meat inside my skull.

So are you saying you can not stop thought when you are painting,
no way to keep the original thought in mind, the thought that inspired the painting?

Stupid for me to even try to write about art. I look at that painting of Night Hawks and try to imagine the original thought that inspired it.
Then I would feel like I would have a whole serries of my own thoughts about the painting,

well there I go again.
just something about some works of art that dragg me into them, Night Hawks has always done that to me. I never thought about why, I think it was more emotion than thought, another biochemical reaction.

A test tube of love
A test tube of mathematical equations.

just my opinions about art and stuff
you know what they say about opinions
I could use another orifice I got so many opinions

[mtmynd]

truck: "So are you saying you can not stop thought when you are painting, no way to keep the original thought in mind, the thought that inspired the painting?"

Unless the painter is copying, (which would include plein air, imho), then yes to your question - to keep the original thought in mind in regards to the painting, that is not possible during the complete painting process, i.e. from beginning to end the painting goes thru changes... seemingly on its own.

[stilltrucking]

makes sense
I am not even sure if I can get my mind around thoughts anymore.
just stuff that happens

I guess what I am trying to say
oh lordy
what I meant to say?

Looking at the painting it seems as if my thought has stopped. A momment of empty mindidness

I try to stop my thought just long enough to note in passing what my first thought was when looking at the picture. Not something I read in some art text book explaining the picture to me, just my own thought of first gazing on it. I can't stop the thought but I can note it in passing

"Traces" is another one that draggs me into it.

I got a link to traces somewhere, it is one artguy did it is in the infinite tide.


Is it possible to look at a painting and have one thought about it.

You are a creator too cecil, I mean a visual artist. So you speak of the process of creation. I speak as a non artist, a consumer, just a fan, an art groupie, just a seer of art. My first thought on seeing the picture was of home sweet home.

going to sit on my hands and see if old kurt has an opinon

I appreaciate the modulation compadre

[mtmynd]

a finished piece of art can certainly entertain thought to the point of exclusivity of thinking about that one composition... as you have with 'Night Hawks.' But whether your singular thought upon viewing that piece is truly one thought repeated over and over or a new, different thought with each viewing, therein lies the question: has the painting become an obsession which overcomes the initial joy or identity with the subject?

[Doreen Peri]

You might be interested in reading the book Oprah is pushing...cecil

Eckart Tolle's "A New Earth"

http://www.amazon.com/New-Earth-Awakeni ... 0525948023

Also watch the recorded event on her site.

http://www.oprah.com/obc_classic/webcas ... e_main.jsp

I'm reading the book and every page I read, I think of you.