I will keep making the same mistake

[stilltrucking]

Woke up from a dream of egg salad and thoughts of my father, the athiest Jew. Some people say all Jews are atheists cause Jews don't believe Jesus was the messiah. Hard to imagine. And the rabbis that pander to the Christian Zionist say that when the messiah comes we can aske him if this is the first or second time he has come. Yes she will be driving six white horses when she comes.



Crazy Mike's theology in a nut shell
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oFsWlq-9Nq4

Read an interesting paper on Joyce and Freud and Mourning and Meloncholia got to find the link for you.

[still.trucking]

Have not found the link yet but here is a snip from the article I found on my hard drive

"In his essay Mourning And Melancholia Freud states that melancholia, like mourning, is a reaction of grief to the loss of a loved object. "In mourning, it is the world which has become poor and empty; in melancholia, it is the ego itself."[3] Therefore, mourning is grief over the loss of someone or something beloved. Melancholia is grief over the loss of the ego. "With one exception, the same traits (of melancholia) are met with in mourning,"[4] Freud states. Melancholia remains an unnatural open wound; mourning, a natural process, frees the participant upon its completion. The mourning or death process is similar to the creative process the mourning process is a death process for the living in which the participant travels the cycle of adjustment when a loved one leaves. In the death process one may or may not find permanent rebirth, but one loses self-awareness and so achieves a temporary rebirth at least. In the mourning process, one must find rebirth; if not, one is in a cycle of melancholia instead. The mourning/death process, likened to the creative process,[5] gives new life, new art, new form.
Freud says the need to be an artist comes from early childhood and a sense of loss that enables the artist to see things differently. This vision rules his life. Not entirely neurotic, not entirely normal, the artist is endowed with a creative personality and a ruthless passion that allows him to separate his own grief feelings of melancholia from his grief feelings of mourning (death/rebirth or creativity cycle). Longing for normalcy, the artist is constantly fought by his need for art, by his vision, by his inner life. Beset by melancholia, his ruthless passion for his inner life during his session (days, weeks, months) of producing an art work separates him from his neurosis. Grief is interpreted as mourning, not depression. Mourning, a positive process in life, leads the sufferer to change and growth, to a kind of rebirth, to a condition previously unknown.
Therefore, it is Joyce's language of grief, not of melancholy, which in Portrait (as well as in Ulysses and Finnegans Wake) surges and ebbs, exceeds traditional edges, is sometimes extinguished, but then is revived. This language is left in a new place, in a new form."

[stilltrucking]

Well I found the title to the article on Joyce and Freud

MOURNING OR MELANCHOLIA:
JOYCE'S DEATH FIXATION AND THE 'CALYPSO' CHAPTER IN ULYSSES

REPORTED BY ALLEGRA WONG

I found it as a footnote to this article check out ]footnote 24

"Mother, Living Things Change!": The Korean Mother/Daughter Conflicts in

Bak Wan-seo's Namok and Eomma-ui Malttuk

http://www.ekoreajournal.net/upload/html/HTML43310.html

[zero_hero]

I guess we will have to stop meeting like this now that the Biotch! is back.

[SadLuckDame]

Where do you like to meet around here?
Just pull up a spot, see you in am.
Hi Lucy! Smiles from me to you.

[stilltrucking]

Sorry Dame
If I bit you
Stoned last time for the first time in a long while, being silly with words.
Libido, libido libido
Feminine Libido
Spooked me out thinking about feminine libidos
Boy oh boy
I wish I was an amoeba
One of things that makes me think intelligent design in a hoax
is sex. There ought to be a more intelligent way for babies to be born.




How did you sleep?
With the bees again?
I hope not

[SadLuckDame]

Yes, that elusive or perhaps sometimes aloft, feminine libido. But, studies show that by knowing it well, it'll be exhaustive, at least it'll be coming in waves of the sea or sumpin', if I could teach anything on women.

I just wanted to bring a recognition to a mysterious bird, whom is sometimes seen, but naturally, not the crowd pleaser.
I did sleep well, I feel good about it,
felt good about waking up, too.

I've a mark.

[stilltrucking]

It is a brave new world in the year 2510 A.F.
No not after Ford
Professor Huxley
After Freud
So in olden days when Knights were cold
we kissed our horses.

Long time ago
Libido meant "life force"
yes we unwombmen
have such frail libidos
overshadowed by our grayzones
where all is perpendicular
and linear
and least for me
I get anxious when I think about mysterious feminine libidos.
Where the life force flows like Niagara
Makes me want to howl at the moon
and take Viagra

[SadLuckDame]

That went beautiful with the banner on-top. The one that said 'if she were mine, we'd make a deluge..." or sumpin'. Gonna have to hunt it down. Niagara the beautiful state of flowing in a rush to be somewhere else.

[.Lucy.]

All dis intelektual talk be givin me head cramps yo

Wat the problem be?

[SadLuckDame]

Lucy, we've got a question about making the same
stupid mistakes. Can ya help a girl out? What's there to do?

[.Lucy.]

Yo, if da mistake iz fun
wat da problem be?

[SadLuckDame]

I'm on it, thanks u.

[.Lucy.]

Lil Plucky be sellin mistakes on da corener

I hook you up real good

[SadLuckDame]

In what colors?

Thanks, gonna go shopping for pillows.

We'd made a lot of mistakes, but didn't seem to bum me out, I'm happy.