"The Moloch of Abstraction"

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"The Moloch of Abstraction"

Reading the Anti-Christ for the first time.

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"ground beef control" to captain jack



If I can get my life simplified
so everything I need to travel on would fit in the bonnet of a 59 Porsche Cabriolet

What would I pack?

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Toys, my ereader, laptop, gps, cell phone.
Books actual books, The Bible, Life Against Death, The Denial of Death, Beyond the Pleasure Principle, My Little Zen Companion. A confederacy of Dunces,

say 40 pounds of books, figure out what I want to take, what I need to take, and what can go as an e-book

Things I need to buy
big ticket items
a kayak

A lotto ticket to pay off the bear's mortgage so I can take off and travel a while without a guilty conscience. Oh lordy what would Nietzsche say? What would Gary Snyder say?

good night text box

on the road with Kerouac, headed towards Mexico tonight. 11:37PM

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ppp
What would I take with me in a backpack and to pack it up then hit the road.
I'd take a camera, a couple of small notebooks and extra pens. I'd take Anais Nin and Henry books, kindle, CDs of Bob Dylan, Amy Winehouse, Janis, Beatles and The Rolling Stones, etc.

I need to buy a bow and arrow set, extra arrows.
On the road I could find large wooded areas to practice using them for a stretch of days on.
A lot of beef jerky for the driving stress.
Fishing pole and gear.

Bottled water, bag of dried food like sunflower seeds.

Hammer, nails, saw.
Paint. Fabric. Sewing box.
A tent, sleeping bag. Flashlight.
Extra blanket, boots, gloves.
Photos.

A bottle of wine, bottle of whiskey
and a first aid kit.

I'd take my daughter and what she might pack.
The dog. I don't think my son would want to go.

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Just fiddling around with a wish list, my forty pounds of books is ridiculous, don;t make sense to travel with that many ink and paper when I can carry a thousand books on my Sony Ereader I just bought. You would not believe what that little thing can do. It is probably the single most thing that makes me truly happy these days. I came downstairs the other day and the bear was sitting in his easy chair drinking his first cup of coffee of the day and he says to me something like "Here we are another day in Hell" I had to laugh.

I been working hard dame, but these are my golden years, I am going to start a new religion for my self, I am going to celebrate a two day Sabbath every week.

SO if you could only take three or four most essential books with you for a two day vacation which would you choose. Which books would you always have to have handy, even just to pickup once and a while glance through it or check something out?

I am thinking two maybe three, a Bible, The Faith of a Heretic by Walter Kaufmann,
a collection of poems, maybe Ferlinghetti's Gone World. I always like to know where that book is. I got about a zillion books it seems but one three foot shelf holds my most vital precious books.

thanks for dropping by, this my friday night I start my other part time job tomorrow. If not for that amazing miraculous little plastic device I would feel like a kid giving it all away.
Definetly take music, but I got a satelitte radio deal in my car now courtesy of my homey here in san antone. I can pay eight bucks and hear a months worth of every music that has ever been recorded it seems.

I been thinking about trying to arrange my work schedule so I can get to days a week off, and rearrange my leisure time so I have more time out and about, my travel plans are rather modest. In and around san antone, maybe an overnight trip to the coast I don't have any long distance road trips in the works.


Nothing to do with all this just something I got on my windows clipboard and was going to post it in the asylum

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Earrings
I used to wonder what would Nietzsche Say
Then I started to wonder what Jesus would say
Now I Hear their silent voices in each ear, like a pair of diamond earrings.in one ear N and the other JC.

And it has kept me kind of sane

I wish I could write the sound that the wind makes when he blows across the vocal chords of those high tension lines

if those high tension electrical transmission lines were the strings on a huge electric guitar. What would the lines sound like then.
what would it sound like if I took an air chuck and blew compressed air over a guitar, would they vibrate,

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Well, if it was a go trip and I might not return on or not for awhile...I mean especially if the end of the world days were here and I had to get a go on...then I have two essential Bibles that are a must to be attached with, mine from childhood and mine from my Nana that was hers.

If it were a two day trip, I might take my childhood Bible. I never know these things, it's like it might hit me and then I'll pack it or I might not. And then I'd prolly just bring my kindle. I do have the KJV Bible on there, though it's not the same as the one I grew up with or that my Nana spent her daily life with.

I haven't picked a church, still have the same hang-ups I wish I'd ditched by now about churches and people in the churches. I feel dumb for hanging on to my grudges, but there I do it anyway.

I guess I just want to couple up with a guy that reads the Bible with me.
Drives me nuts to be admitting my weaknesses like this. I'm so weak about the congregation.

Prolly also want Henry and June, Richard Brautigan's Watermelon Sugar and I don't know.

I am going to Hot Springs in April by way of road trip with my friend and her son,
it'll be the second time I go to the races. Also going to my old state at the end of the month, but that's just a few hours in the car and not much road tripping. Still, I'll get the week to be lazy.

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I been working six days a week because I do not organize my time very well. I could do it in five days easy. If I wanted to put in four long days I could have three days a week off.

As silent woman used to tell me, " a day off is a day on"
The end of this world, yeah it could be, if you study your Bible real hard there are many signs of the times, what was that bit about the Greeks require a sign, or was that the Jews, got to check it out.


Beats me dame, it all looks pretty hopeless to me, the way the stories and rumors of war come and go on the 24 hour news cycle, it is a good thing the international situation is so desperate, people are tunning in to ET Tonight to keep informed.

I been watching too much news about the Republican primaries. I think any one of those clowns would make a great president to hasten the end times.

I am just a paranoid Jew boy from east baltimore
G d save the queen

thanks for playing
you give me something to do
I like to type.
I been sleeping with Kerouac the past week, On The Road audio book.

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Which reminds me that I'd prolly take On the Road, too.
It's funny about it, starting a new road when first reading On the Road.
I mean I've liked all the flat tires, snowy conditions, broken wipers, the horn beeps and hitchhikers, being the hitchhiker, the truckers.. and the wildlife.
I've liked being this passenger, listening to the radio.

Jack, I'm hungry, let's eat at Susie's diner and play the jukebox while drinking dark coffee. They have good homemade pie.

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I can not remember anything from Watermellon Sugar, isn't that strange, or is it, been forty years since I read it and loved it.

Sometimes I feel sorry for Jack, he saw what was on the end of his dork, women drove him to drink himself to death, but it was a good death for him, a Catholic death.

Never understand why he had to say "my aunt" in the novel. Was it to protect his mother's privacy? That makes sense. I would not want to cash in on my family. Ha Ha

Oh well I never cried for Jesus so I won't cry for Kerouac. I cried for JFK, but it was just an abreaction, I was really crying for Crazy Mike but I was not awake enough to know it at that time. What else am I dreaming.

Heard a good song today

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Mayhaps, it is that I think we're stronger together, you and I, but I'm weaker in the congregation. It drowns me and I'm surrounded in sorrow. I mean if I'm in a church with church people, the last thing I want to worry about is church people not embracing and giving a full love to children coming in from broken homes, the children broken and I don't want to hear bad gossip about kids and families that struggle and don't look so pretty.

But, it is what happens in the congregation. I can't find a church that I don't walk in lifted and walk out broken hearted.

I don't know how, but I need to build a bridge for walking that stretch of road some time. I've put it off for now. I keep shrugging them, as if they're the least of the importance.

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I watched that and thought it was striking deep inside.
Thank you, Jack.

What I need to do is reflect more on the good of the people. I have seen them pull together and really help families, bake food, bring needed gifts. I need to let that remembering be bigger than all the awful things I can remember.

It's a road to build a bridge to.
It'd be tough without your blinking lights out there on the dark streets, in the rain and flagging me on, even when I'm scardid.

I'm lucky to have you for a dearest heart to heart about this world.
To have your friendship means a lot for me.

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Thanks dame
So tired I can't stop yawning
I have become one of those people Kerouac did not want to be around. Or maybe I am just working too hard. Or maybe I am hiding from the truth, maybe I am getting ready to fall over grab my chest. So weird. I am a hypochondriac yawner .

Sitting here thinking about snow. The text book is a pure white virgin snow till I start make marks on it. These black things, these symbols letters words language that comes out of the blankness and marches across the page, churches not much experience with them. What little I have was mostly Quakers and Jews, but I am ignorant in faith and practice of both, I can not stop being a Jew, and that I have chosen the faith of a heretic, the Quakers the most dogma free church I know of. but there have been many schisms among Quakers, many types of Quaker "churches" I think many of them prefer the phrase "Meeting for Worship" I liked the format of the Silent Meetings.

Maybe I am yawning because I dog tired, worked the bus today, out and about since fourteen hours ago, I feel like I tracked a polar bear across the frozen tundra and brought home the bacon, going to sleep the sleep of the just or maybe the just asleep

good night sister

[SadLuckDame]

Sweet dreams, Jack.
Have him and he'll have you.
Gotta love those polar bears, they're out on the ice every day.
Which amazes me.

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I am going to miss the polar bears. I hope not
Stumbled on an old friend tonight, well she don't know me from Adam but I first heard her back in 1976 in a little Nashville honky tonk called Mississippi whiskers. Back in the days when I still went out to hear live music

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