dream book

[stilltrucking]

I think I was born to follow. How many of my opinions are my own?

I like what Joseph Campbell said about the Holy Grail.

Libido over Creedo

To live your own life is to find the holy grail.



http://www.pbs.org/moyers/faithandreaso ... ives1.html

[SadLuckDame]

You might borrow it,
I know I do
but we live in what's borrowed.
Doesn't that make it our own?

We just tell what we're living
and people had lived like we do,
but they may have ate bear
and dug more holes.

Or wired on more opium.

My Magician turned me on to mythology.
I'm still looking into any chance I can.

I know I'm not original.
I've a piece of Anais, a little Janis bird, I love Lucy
lots of Pete, Peter and repeat, some Roxy
and a tad Henry. What makes me more unique
is my grandma's impoliteness
and how much she winked at me, etc.

I don't know, but don't remind me I'm nothing.
I already take care of that part.
And you make me smile, even if it's borrowed
most I'm reading for the first time.

[stilltrucking]

A Dream like Busby Berkeley musical from the thirties but with no music. I can only remember one dream in the past 68 years that I heard any music in.

I was struting on a piano Keyboard sidewalk
step on a key kick another word
doing the keyboard jitterbug.

[SadLuckDame]

Busby Berkeley musical--I watched some of his on youtube yesterday after reading this. One I liked especially the choreography, was the waterfall one with all the fantastic legs in the water doing a kaleidoscope effect. It was beautiful!

[SadLuckDame]

Do mothers remember their dreams more often than men simply because we wake more during the night to see to our young? And do we seem to recall more dreams during times that our children are younger and waking throughout the night than when they're older and wake less? I'm curious, because I think I can recall more dreams during periods of time when I'd awaken periodically to care for them then I seem to now.

[stilltrucking]

I think about your x and guilt trips. I think about Freud and penis envy. I think it is men who feel inadequate. That is why we have to brow beat women.

I don't know anything about mothers dame. I get queasy even thinking about your question and your mother's body. So many men pontificating about women from pulpits, judges benches and the mullahs too. The only got dam revolution that means anything to me is feminism.

They say women have more white matter men more gray matter, straight ahead linear thinking and circular thinking. Yet we can come to the same conclusions by different routes. I just don't know. I have many conversations with my sister. I have learned to respect her thinking. I tend to jump ahead to conclusions but if I listen, really listen I can understand what she is saying.

Not much of an answer for you. sorry

[stilltrucking]

Sorry
I will try again to answer your question but I don't know how, I can not speak from experience. I was thinking about how a nursing mother begins to lactate when she hears her baby cry. I am thinking about Sylvia Plath's fatal biology.

Nothing to do with this, my mind wanders to thoughts of bosses. I thought it was a catchy title.

Mothers Lactate; Bosses Hyperventilate

[SadLuckDame]

I wish I'd a boss teacher man like you Jack, so I could feel built up, ready to learn more and interested every day. Brow beatings are wearing my spirit out.

[stilltrucking]

Dreaming about M and M's in color.

I don't want to be anybodies boss man

I am self employed

[SadLuckDame]

I don't want you to be my boss man, just a boss man with a similar handle. Grr.

[stilltrucking]

I want to be your cyber brother
and friend

I want to walk the back roads of the info highwya by your side.

[SadLuckDame]

It was just that kind of day yesterday, I'm becoming tragic.

[stilltrucking]

a lot of dreams in color last night
maybe I was wrong about men only dream in black and white
I read that somewhere long ago.

Sorry to hear about your day yesterday
Hoping today will bring you better.

I did not know Carol Jean
only through her art and wireman's words.


I hope he is okay
thinking about my mother's death
she died fully conscious
her eyes wide open
looking into the mirror on the wall opposite her bed
I know nothing about judaism
but it is the custom to cover the mirrors in a house of mourning.

I remember a feeling of relief when she died
that her suffering was over and mine too
it took a bout two weeks for it to really sink in
that I would not be seeing her again
I would not be stopping by to have a chat with her anymore
and then I felt guilty for feeling relief and remembered an uncle telling me why Jews covered the mirrors while sitting "shiva" so as not to see their faces and feel guilty for still living. Not sure if that is true but he was a cantor so I guess he knew what he was saying.
But I was wrong about not seeing her again.
I remember the first time I dreamed about her after she died
I woke up feeling happy and refreshed then I remembered she was dead, I think I may have remembered that at the end of the dream. And her telling me she was okay.
But Since then I have never dreamed of her and woke up with a feeling of despair.



sorry for mark
I hope he is okay
god I loved her art
I felt as if I knew her

[SadLuckDame]

There were certain times when the catfish would tell me the sad things or painful or etc. and I'd feel it so deep. I'd tell him, "I wish I could give you a hug." That was the hardest part of the friendship--that I couldn't follow through on what instinctively I'd felt to do.

Jack, Moms think so highly of their sons. A special bond there. Not even death to break it. I know it's true.

I'm sorry wired for your loss too, yours and Jacks and the catfish's.

[stilltrucking]

Sometimes mothers dote on their sons to the detriment of their daughters. Or so it seemed in my family. I was coddled no doubt. Not her favorite son, just her baby boy.