"For the Brain, Remembering Is Like Reliving"

[Diana Moon Glampers]

Experts said the study had all but closed the case: For the brain, remembering is a lot like doing (at least in the short term, as the research says nothing about more distant memories).

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/09/05/scien ... ref=slogin

My most painful memories are of myself being wrong.

Wrong about being right
wrong speach
wrong action
wrong intention
and so on and so forth.

_______________________

notes to myself
memory and remembering
as a noun
as a verb

[the mingo]

A sad whale of a man once wrote a book and gave it the title of "War all the Time"...I've never read the book. I never will read the book. I just like the title. Sometimes I go down to the bookstore and look at it sitting there with all the other books he wrote. I read the title on the binding, sometimes I even go so far as to pull it off the shelf and read the title on the cover itself. Then I put it back in its place. It would be wrong to read it. Wrong hurts. Wrong always hurts.

[stilltrucking]

all google


I am entangled in three on going conversations with you and it is hard to untwine them

I am getting cross threaded with you

I replied to this post kind of on your post above to your artlog.

these same folks who are so passionately curious how our brains work are getting so elegant with their hardware,

who can resist the call of that bitch whore reason. (who the hell said that, I know you know mingo, was it Hegel? Kant, Goethe, somebody famous. I am a google poser and a ignorant child, you are ten times the scholar that I are)

it hurts me to imagine the future
but I am not a poet
I am sure
maybe I could be
but I am too uptight to let it go
so I suppose that explains why I loose control

so sweet
to rant and rage
such a powerful feeling

[silent woman]

Reason is a whore, the greatest enemy that faith has.
Martin Luther

[stilltrucking]

SHE SAID
from: War All the Time

what are you doing with all those paper
napkins in your car?
we dont have napkins like
that
how come your car radio is
always turned to some
rock and roll station?do you drive around with
some
young thing?
you're
dripping tangerine
juice on the floor.
whenever you go into
the kitchen
this towel gets
wet and dirty,
why is that?
when you let my
bathwater run
you never
clean the
tub first.
why don't you
put your toothbrush
back
in the rack?

you should always
dry your razor

sometimes
I think
you hate
my cat.
Martha says
you were
downstairs
sitting with her
and you
had your
pants off.
you shouldn't wear
those
$100 shoes in
the garden

and you don't keep
track
of what you
plant out there

that's
dumb
you must always
set the cat's bowl back
in
the same place.

don't
bake fish
in a frying
pan...

I never saw
anybody
harder on the
brakes of their
car
than you.

let's go
to a
movie.

listen what's
wrong with you?
you act
depressed.
. http://www.charlesbukowski.20m.com/bukowski_poems.html

[the mingo]

yeah the cross threading is screwing with my head too plus I'm in the process of cutting down on my smoking since last Thursday - with a view to quitting. Considering how much I smoke on a daily basis I'm doing well with it though yesterday I had a rough time just after I got to work. My nicotine receptor cells had had enough and ganged up on me big time with an all out assault on my resolve and moved en masse to overrun my position. All I could think of was having a smoke but I held them off for four hours, then another half hour for lunch. I allowed myself that smoke after lunch & then made it thru the rest of the shift and all the way home before I had another one. I'm down to 7 to 8 a day from 40 or more...the more i do this the more I see that I want to be clean of and clear of this for good. I've smoked most of my life.

[stilltrucking]

I been smoking a lot of tea the past couple days, makes me compulsive even more with this scribling.