Alprazolam

[myrna minkoff]

I call them his stupd pills.
I tell him if you got to have it okay but for Chirst's sake don't forget about the side effects.

[SadLuckDame]

I used to get addicted to uppers like black crosses, white crosses and drug store no-doze or vivarans. Got to taking em so much when that I was popping 100+ a day, the most was 146 and I'd hallucinated.
I decided to stay away from them since, was worried I'd had a weak nature
and like to be influenced with the buzz. Put it all way back then behind me.

Now I'm contemplating what I can do about an anxiety of being up in the air in a plane. I'm already visioning it to extremes, it's already causing me sickness of what I'd do trapped in a plane with a panic attack.
My hearts beating at night really fast if I think about that flight.
I picture things and internalize em.
I plan to drink some wine, perhaps,
but do you think for a serious case of anxiety I should seek my dr. for some sort of pills, full knowing I've worry it'd be an addiction and side effects.
I'd prefer to sleep and not knows I'm on a plane.

What thinks you, Jack?
I'm a nervous heck.

[judih]

i'm thinking hypnosis is far preferable to any kind of pill

NLP (neuro-linguistic programming) can also help - and a session takes about 10 minutes. and then you can practise.

no kidding.

[SadLuckDame]

I'm kinda paranoid about hypnosis and anything where they'd have some sort of power over my mind. I've too many paranoias, but I'll look into that NLP and see what's what. I might try something simple as a calmer that's natural like Valerian root... I used to drink it as a tea and it mellowed and soothed pretty nicely. I need to see what other types of mellow herbers are out there, too. I'm afraid of drugs, won't even take codeine or pain killers from hospitals after surgery, etc.

But, if it's non-addictive, not harmful to me and preferably natural, I'd consider.

Valerian is used for insomnia and other disorders as an alternative to benzodiazepine drugs, and as a sedative for nervous tension, hysteria, excitability, stress and intestinal colic or cramps
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Valerian_%28herb%29

Judih your post made me think of meditating. I've never practiced it, but it might help to start.

[short timer]

Talking to my little rock and roller, he wants to have his daughter baptized. I figure the baby has already baptized as a Catholic during her hiatus.

We talked of G d briefly, he said something saved him when he crashed his motorcycle at eighty miles per hour. I am not much into theological debates, I was happy he felt grateful to be alive.

I have had that feeling too. Even now as my skin turns reptilian and my
nervous system shorts out constantly.
And I am still grateful to be alive

Taken so many different meds that list suicidal thoughts as side effects. You would think I would be more depressed.

I think a good hatha yoga instructor is what I need. Going in for an MRI Monday. Nothing but spurs and compressed disks in my neck according to the x-rays. . I though it was shingles.

But the meds helping with the pain, I have thought about acupuncture but not hypnotism.

Worst than suicidal thoughts for me is the increased appetite. So far I have regained three of the 18 pounds.

Well that's my kvetching for the day.
Always cheers me up to see you here judith
cheers always from you too dame

[SadLuckDame]

Is that what those meds are doing with you,
causing suicidal thoughts, Jack?
Can't ya get some other method instead of them?

[judih]

udih your post made me think of meditating. I've never practiced it, but it might help to start.

yeah. meditation is wonderful. It's a great way to attempt to get in touch with a quieter central 'us'.
If you can experience meditation, NLP will work well.
NLP is a kind of helping hand into meditation and a technique to help you get the result you want.
really! I'm studying it right now and after 3 meetings, i see how useful it is in my own life.

the phenomenon of 'suicidal thoughts' from particular meds is a known side effect. They are dangerous. Check out the research on meds, Jack - in case yours are in that lethal category.

Sad Luck - If you find a simple guided meditation on the Net - it can lead you into deep relaxation.
i don't have any links off-hand, but for sure, there are many that are freely available.

[short timer]

Is that what those meds are doing with you,
causing suicidal thoughts, Jack?
Can't ya get some other method instead of them?

wHEN you ask me a question like that, I realize what a shit writer I am.

I have had suicidal thoughts as long as I can remember which suprises me because I only attempted suicide once when I was eight years old.

No dame what I said is that the known side effects of some of the meds I am taking are suicidal thoughts. That is what the literature says. I was joking when I said it.

I see how I confused you, I wrote:

Taken so many different meds that list suicidal thoughts as side effects. You would think I would be more depressed.

I should have wrote:

I am taking so many different meds that list suicidal thoughts as side effects. You would think I would be more depressed.

I should have used an emoticon.

I have no desire to kill myself, I should say I have no conscious desire to kill myself.

If you have read Beyond the Pleasure Principle which is a bunch of Freudian shit about a death instinct.


I want to at least out live Freud that suicidal son of a bitch

thanks for being a cyber pal of mine

[SadLuckDame]

I don't know whys, I just try to read the next lines that weren't written yet and then I don't recognize I'd done it that way when I reply.
My apologies, Jack.

Good ribbons.

But, what I was going to really tell you is that I'm glad it's not tripping ya up and I hope it is more relief than annoying effects from. I think good thoughts, thinking health.

[stilltrucking]

No it is not anything you owe me an apology for. I need to be a more careful writer. Have you ever noticed how many medications list suicidal thoughts as a side effect. From Acutane to Ambien, anti-depressents to acne meds, sleeping pills to toenail anti-fungus meds all listing suicidal thoughts as a side effect.

I don't know much about Zen or meditation but I think the point is to watch your thoughts chug by but not get attached to them.

I am not afraid of my thoughts.

Maybe I should be.

thanks for being a friend.
I look forward to your posts

[short timer]

Kind of late in the game for me to be worried about my thoughts.They come they go.

[short timer]

I will watch my thoughts
and pick and chews
the ones I want
to follow that train
Ferlinghetti's train

I don't need no help from no dam medication to think about suicide.
I can do that all by myself

Writing is a trade off
there is no free brunch
is that the first or second law of thermodynamics


whatever that is

boy oh boy these meds got me puckered up scared
then on top of that the grass.

yeah I got plenty to watch

I wish I was bored.

Got dam trucks done this to me

[SadLuckDame]

I don't knows what you mean,
you can say anything ya feeling likes saying around me.
I might misinterpret, but what's a little misinterpretation with friends
this is where we're safe to say, think and feels.
I say go for it on writing.
I'll follow along in my womanly fashions. Ooo
riding that train.

[stilltrucking]

fucking trucks did this to me
all the slam bam bad roads
I have shrunk an inch
barely five foot ten when I was five foot eleven once upon a time.

I keep a close watch on this brain of mine
because your mine.

[SadLuckDame]

Pregnancy did it to me,
I'd almost lost my arch
and I know I'm prolly shorter.
ppp