Studio8 - Uniting the Arts

i was in a big house with a dangerous german nurse, and had to sneak in to see the baby. my mother was never home. the baby, as it turns out was my sister, and without much trouble i can tell you we spent many years of our childhood together. she went to australia, i went to italy, our family has been quite filled with
children and husbands
surfers and tides
somehow our relationship died
betrayal is painful to the self centered
street people expect it
i ran away from home
paid the price for that one a millon times
now after she sends me love by facebook
and i did not drown
she levels me the next day
just like my mother
ok whatever
i cannot do it one more time
i forfiet
hurts too much
butcher style of a scorpion
i loved her so much
and she just is not that little girl anymore
but the woman she became is someone that is too interested in only what she is interested in..which makes it impossible
because i am no longer begging for love
confusion and family
things have happened that i am unsure about

I knew her father well
his hell did slowly go bye
now she has a h usband

the last time i saw her was at a wedding-i went in the hole for three months to see her, she never knew

i was her mother older sister... best friend- all that is gone now- when i needed help there was no ne there- we had such different ideas about love and life= like we grew up in different worlds..

Who can put a price on a sister
This is her second marriage to the same husband
her first divorce cost me thirty thousand dollars
this marriage has lasted longer than the first
I hope they make it I can't afford another divorce
I told her mother that I would look out for her
I did not realize at the time I was going to have to look out for her husband too

i feel ya-each divorse cost me about 10 grande- last one 7000. he was cheaper
in many ways i guess

My brother in law said "a bullet is cheaper than a divorce" pissed me off when I heard it. It got ugly for a while between me and "the bear" as I call my brother in law"

But we get along pretty good now.

I never been married, I ain't never going to get married. There is not a woman on this earth that will be my bride. And even if there was she would have to be batshit crazy to want to marry me.

but if money could buy me love I would be a mail order husband or a bank robber

don't mind me sister
don't mean nothing
I am just typing this wondering what words are going to appear here next

I know some happy marriages, truly happy

I don't even want to live with a woman again
I know I could never sleep next to one again


the elephant is my totem animal I think
solitary males circling the matriarchal herd

lol, you are too much.
Bratty as usual!

My sister myself
she took me in at night
scared away a hoard of monsters
and kept a light on.

boy oh boy you startled me
I was editing my last post trying to get my foot farther into my mouth and then I hit submit and there you were

My sister needs a sister, only so much a brother can relate to, I know that.

this bit from the video you posted of anais nin

…and I did no quite agree with Henry…he denied the personal in what he wrote
the difference between what a man has to say and what a woman has to say

quoted from geezer memory

I'm in agreement.
If you turned the gender off on that then it'd look striking as if I too had said it too.

As in if I had the monies I'd be the mail order bride.
I'm not up to par for being the marrying type
I mean I have too much eccentricities
he'd have to be able to tolerate a lot of my absurdities
and the communication will be difficulty, we'd have to write letters such as Henry's co-worker had to in order to proceed with his own wife.

Batshit crazy. Where in the world
and then there's the tempers, the torment of sleeping patterns and preference.
I might wake in a terrible mood and think his feet too cold or our breath over stimulating or not enough pillow, not the right blanket positioning
and I don't sleep in p.j.s. I think it's runaway syndrome.