Beautiful Heart

[mousey1]

Beautiful Heart

I saw it a smile off
glowing shadow fractured
a million pieces of sweet
scattered dangling from treetops
twinkling off stars
hanging from weeds daisies cornhusks
wedged between my teeth
candyfloss heartache
baby grand piano played with my feet
munching watermelon and
spittin' the seeds
into heart shaped dreams
ah
ditsy
dizzy
me


It's all fucked up isn't it
supposed to be so easy
like folding yourself into a nightmare
summoning all your willpower just to die
un easy
mystery of surging cruelty
give help feel need urgently
not a sentiment exactly
more of a raging
How many times have I talked
walked into the speaking easy
wanting to say it freely nothing held back
standing behind a closed door
nose to hard wood
knowing you would think me whacked
airhead jaundiced in a package of ready-made twit
How many times
It doesn't matter
hearts ticking on
keeping time
two beats

Oh I'm just me
wandering about head in the stars
two left feet
going around in a circle

hut hut march march
step one step two round and round

cue the maniacal laughter
cue the mime...bullseye on his chest
cue the clown...rubber red nose I'd like to pop
cue the existential stripteaser...take it all off

you pop my top
beautiful heart
you me
x y z


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We tend to clean up our fantasies don't we
polish sparkling light and bright
all nuance heaven scent
not a blemish not a wart in sight
vivacious orgasmytry
intimate imagery

astounded floundering fish
swimming in a bowl for all to see
scuttled emergentcy
How big my heart gets when it's around you
like soft horizons and setting suns
never a harsh edge cold chill
just warm cozy glow
How big my heart gets when it's around you
Joni Mitchell sings
How Do you stop
How Do you stop
I think the point is
why would you want to
Discoveries made while not even searching
eyes beholding what you did not wish to see
all your reasonings all your reckonings
shot to pieces in the blink of an eye

stand up
make a speech
list all the reasons
why why why
stand up
show me the sensible
why why why

I'm not a day dreamer a fantasy seeker not really
I prefer real
the day to day
a little bit of the hum drum
a little bit of quietly sit
read a book
listen smile look at you
now that's a day dream night dream
I can get my mind around
solidly



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I'm still looking for that perfect combination
the x y z
the you me squared
the juxtaposition
the facing off
the looking into
the eye to eye
oh fuck
the eye to eye
wouldn't that just set a fish to fryin'
sometimes I stand in the rain
let it wash over me and I swear
I can see the steam risin'
melting hot me
cool rain
dripping on a hot griddle
mmmmmmmmmmmm
what sizzle
you're in me
perfect fit
roiling around in my brain
absently stroking
unaware
soother



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you are that to me all that
and more
you are that all that to me all that
and more
you are that all that all that to me
and more you are
you are all that all that all to me
and more you are all that all that all that
to me and more than you'll ever know
you are all that to me and more
if if if you were you are

jibber jabber got a heart on a sleeve
whatever that is portent to mean
heart on a sleeve
smile of a child in a world sometimes not fit
twirling motionless
stretching and mutating
oh my good Christ if you'd just come to me
but no, not supposed to wish that
turn instead nose to the wheel
grind grind grind it out
work it out ease it out pain it out
edge it out numb it out
I got too much stamina
too much repose
too much steadfast stubborn stiff upper lip
oh how I would love to crumble
crumble into you

[mnaz]

Heart dangerously on a sleeve...

kind of an all-or-nothing trail,

as I've noticed.

[mousey1]

Yes, perhaps a bit of a trail mix of sameness with a theme.


thank-you for reading mnaz