why do you create?

[Doreen Peri]

(conversation with myself october 2004)

why do you create?
is it something innate
or learned?

this problem's answer
i've yet to discern.

are you forced to make
something new by
an element?
by wind?

how do you know
where to stop –
how to begin?

_____________

i create an evening's
answers from dust.

we are all creators.
all of us.

_____________

but who created the dust?
who created the wind?
your breath on a pane?
your handwave?
the must be made?
or who or what?

_____________

i create a morning's thrust
from below the day. i rise
like daystars, day, the repetition,
day the reason, the mission,
day, the seasoned meal
eaten, swallowed whole
by sunset

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but why do you create?
is there mating in an answer?
do you fashion your product
like a dancer owns
a leap? or do you
simply keep
silent - speak
sentiments to
sillouhettes
without reply?

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yes,
but i
do not
know why.
i am the secret lair where
i dare to lie, i am sacred scrawls
on tie-dyed sheet skin, places
to be other than this attempt
to answer.

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i cannot argue with fortitude
or such connected wealth.
i am baffled since i do not
know, myself.
if creativity
is born with breath,
than how can we
consider the mastery
of a disaster imagined?

or worse.

how can you possibly
answer this verse?
___________

verses can be mastered
not spoken out of turn.
creation is something innate,
not learned.