Bandit Notions

[creativesoul]

they- the ones that said it- said that somethings are just 'not acceptable' it is irritating to me that some people have 'intrusive' energy= i guess i am too sensative- but please god can i have a day alone- will she take the obnoxious dog with her?

[the mingo]

You're gonna hate me but maybe you should accept the presence of the dog like you do
the mist ? Told ya you was gonna hate me I could about eat some sunflower seeds mixed with raisins and peanuts right now - and then go chant under a nice hot shower for a half hour or so - then present myself to myself all clean & shiny.

[creativesoul]

i do not hate you and i love the dog too- she just smells- and i am the only one who cleans- thats it in a peanut shell-

[creativesoul]

I ate things that I shouldn't have eaten-my body is unhappy with the subway sandwich that someone bought for me- and I felt obligated to eat it- knarly

[the mingo]

The things we do for society - endless
you have done a righteous deed & you will live

[creativesoul]

RECLUSE is a spider that has bitten a few of my friends- the tale they tell- and all that- the tree farmer- well - i dunno- i am having second thoughts- even third- i have an idea about what i gotta have= the road which leads to love is sometimes a creative one- like a menu- and i am choosing to have the vegetarian with the beautiful soul and spirit- likes the green- the energy- the $ the food- the green energy- he is a smart guy with a heart.and he likes me-
that is what i want this monday morning-
so if i were a spider i would be one that was all green with cool colors- a garden variety spider-
but the recluse- has a violin on its back- and brings sad music- painful screeching of what you negelected-
i once got bit by a spider in bondi australia at my sisters house- my finger turned black but i lived- it was pretty interesting-

[the mingo]

Spiders? Tree Farmer? Vegetarians? Black Finger ? OMG -

[the mingo]

I got 'bout six different kinds of spiders here at the lodge and every one is a child of Iktomi - the place is stupid with them especially now the colder weather has set in - I think what dreams I have are sent by her ya know - I woke up from a dream couple of weeks ago - it was a dream where i was trying to get away from this potato-headed puppet looking critter that was trying to choke me and hold me down as I was trying to rise to conscious levels and I was trying to point him out to everybody in the dream as one nasty little bastard but nobody was listening so I knew when he came for me with his hands going around my neck I had to book big time for the surface - I woke up back here in the no country for old men moaning like a python what had swallowed an alligator and blinked at the ceiling a few times as the realization set in I had made it - then i rolled over on my side to find a spider sittin' on my pillow right next to my ear - shit - ya know some NDN's say that Iktomi is really a creative spirit - bullshit on that - my take is Iktomi is she's a real bitch - I never fell in love with a tree farmer - I did work once for a woman owned a fir tree farm up on Tug Hill Plateau - had me help her cut the branches off the fir trees and she made Xmas wreaths out of them - she was stone cold the world's loneliest woman ever up there on her tree farm - down from her place & across the road was an old one-room schoolhouse lived in by an old girl what hung a sign out front on a maple tree proclaiming to one and all that the place was the Poem Factory - got some real interesting folks up there on Tug Hill Plateau - 'course that's all changing now - shame too - I suppose I have known some vegetarians - can't really tell in the dark ya know -

[creativesoul]

laughing all the way to the place where the spider bitch was-- my mother used to scream the spider scream and say 'there is a spider in the bathtub' for years i was a spider murderess- for my mother- then one day i started picking them up and carrying them outside- i ran away from home at 13- to new orleans- back then you could get rice and beans and a rootbeer for fifty cents- and listen to jazz while eating the best beans i have ever had=..
at any rate- i know some real bitches- yes i do- with tatoo s of spiders and shit- in the dark- it is sweet- but the taste of the venom - lasts longer than the stories- spiders like to weave- in my dreams- the whole dream catcher- just hoovers over the house like a space ship- today my room mate made oatmeal- for her this is cooking-
i am happy-
it does not take much-or does it really- i am having that xmas digust- of feeling like i am supposed to do some expensive gift giving- i have tried to get a credit card- but they basicly wont give me one- i have a law suit againest an evil woman who thinks her spider is bigger than mine- sorry bout your luck pal-
hope your day is filled with beauty-

[the mingo]

some days are beautiful
some days are shit
i fill my pockets
either way -

Thx Jana

[creativesoul]

the southern sunshine is coming thru the french doors- here at my spot- at the farm- it was me that brought that light in here- there were glass doors there before- and i knew some child was going to hurt him or herself- and i wasnt having it- as it turns out- it works- peter- the guy that installed it- is a useful- yet incompetent male carpenter- he does not finish anything- and does nothing extra ever- when i build my treehouse i am going to find younger men- with money on their mind and women -and after work they are going to have fun-
now a finish carpenter- is a different deal- they love on the wood- the pull the grain out=- they sand with hot hands- and longer fingers-
they varnish and they shine= but this guy wouldnt make framer in kauai they would run him off-even after a hurricane=
the ranch hand and i make jokes about fixing peter s work- how -he sports a coffee cup- that the witch-gave him- which i may accidentally knock over and break-=---

[the mingo]

Ha - be careful around that cup - witches are just dreams that forgot to end

[creativesoul]

ok so wont break it- just make him grab for it- like the fool he is- didnt anyone tell you to brush your teeth- that your girlfriends should be under 250 pounds- i guess not-someone told me once fat girls were nicer than skinny girls- i beg to differ- i have met some mean angry fat women and nothing could fix it- except a whole lotta food-
shovelfuls of spaghetti- like the beatles- and well- i dunno- it is monday- and later- i will enetr a home where a man is suffocating of the very same disease i have- of the lungs- yep-and 'vaping' isnt working- too many za za gabor intimations-vinettes- lies= smoke-
secrets- stockings, bra, underwear- money lipstick eyepencil- move towards the day-it is gray out- what will we do when we get to the 'jumping off place' i have seen old ladies dying calling for mama- i have seen them scratch at the walls thinking they were falling- like a dog-
i have seen a few people go- and i have been a helper-




im tired real tired- no amount of sleep qwells what is inspiring me

[the mingo]

What is inspiring you ?

[creativesoul]

SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL- SOMETHING I HAVE SEEN A FEW TIMES AND HAVE FELT A LIGHTNESS OF BEING- A PRESENCE LARGER THAN THAT TREE OUTSIDE OR THE PLANET something that heals and charges like a battery= love- energy- poetry- painting- gardening- excercise- life inspires me to keep going- and i hear that this is maybe as good as it gets.....or maybe this just gets better and better- sometimes while feeling particularly inspired i feel immersed- like i was in a pool of water= it is so peaceful---