Cancer lady, firstly

[SadLuckDame]

I gots my 'You will be missed!" card today,
after I gots shipped off to a new class.
I walked out smiling, graceful as I could muster
all day.
Monday I'll smell like more bleach water
and start fresh.
Trying to not feel rejected.
Lump in my throat.
Maybees
the new lady will likes me.

[stilltrucking]

I don't know what is going on
I hope she likes you too.

Searching around for something unstoopid to say

To comprehend eternal recurrence in his thought, and to not merely come to peace with it but to embrace it, requires amor fati, "love of fate":
Ouroboros

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I am Sagitarius and I got moon in Pisces, and I was born in the year of the dragon if you want to know. And I was born before the war, which war you might ask. The Peloponnesian.

I am old but I am happy even if I don't care about happiness anymore. Maybe that is what makes me happy these days.
And I got a streak of sarcasm wider then the Pacific ocean, and I bite my tongue so much I am always spittiing blood.

Thank you for being a cyber pal
I am wishing and hoping she likes you as much as I do.
I like the saying "friends come and go but enemies accumulate" even if I can't remember anymore who said it.
__________________________________________
It is all turtles from her on down.
All the talk of Brautigan and Hunter Thompsons suicides nobody mentions Kerouac who was too good a Catholic to do it so he drank himself to death. And women drove him to it. He could not stand to see them yawn in his face
how did he get to be so old at the tender age of forty seven. I consider him a saint because of the beautiful books he left us same with Brautigan.

oh lordy
help I am typing and I can't stop.

Can you see it as all so perfect even if it is a world of shit. I have no children no hostages to the future but I try to keep hope for those that do.

What, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and say to you: 'This life as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live once more and innumerable times more' ... Would you not throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse the demon who spoke thus? Or have you once experienced a tremendous moment when you would have answered him: 'You are a god and never have I heard anything more divine.'

Sorry about the ramble

[SadLuckDame]

Thanks Trucker. I can't speak too much into it. But I'm highly uncomfortable with work stress is the gist of it. I've not a single pen pal lately to go to with my troubles. I'm just standing in the gusts and depending on my very tough survivorbility skin. With work related, ex related and lonely related stress I might pop.
pop pop pop
Only thing keeping me from breaking is your mighty distraction, it helps I say. Distraction is an unnoticed valuable.

Now you can torment and tease me that I'm only saying it's tough cause you are.

I gots me too. I'm dependable. I can find a way to adapt. I can find a current. I wish today I were well liked. That's a pill at times.

[SadLuckDame]

I am Sagitarius and I got moon in Pisces, and I was born in the year of the dragon if you want to know.

Jack! I knew it. I find I'm drawn to sagis. I think they're my moon, or sumpin' well they are, but I think they magnet me like the moon does.

My Grandma was a Sagi, and my lil sister is, my first guy was, the catfish. Supposedly Cancer doesn't know what to do with their bluntness, but I preferred it in my Grandma, and in the catfish and in me. Maybees cause it's my moon. I don't know. And Sags aren't wimps. I don't do well with wimps. I like strong, I like guts and so I like sags. I search for more more and more. Sags have more, always do. I liked my Grandma so very much.
I look for her. Spit and vinegar.

[stilltrucking]

"They say I was a rebel till I reached the age of five
It was then that I got caught up in the struggle to survive"

Best wishes for you new boss lady


You give it your best shot
that's all you can do.

"Bosses are like diapers, all over your ass and full of shit" I am sure you heard that one before

[SadLuckDame]

I'd been incredibly lucky being my own boss for ten years.
I forgot what biting my tongue felt like. I had to go nap it off, smother the edge in sleep. I think I worked through a bunch of work related emotions there with dreams. I'll have to add to your dream book.
I'd gone to a psychic just to see what would be said. He says, death is always tomorrow, so put everything together today. Living in the moment is something I'm well equipped for.

'm glad I didn't hold back. I said everything so quickly
spur of the moment to him
I bravely jumped, Jack
I'm relieved I'd jumped.

Yes, it's been a long while
but I showed him the truth of me.
I skinny dipped, I streaked
there's freedom in that
there's all of me in that.

Thanks Trucker.
I'm relieved you picked me up on highway heading west. I was just hitchhiking. You crossed my path, and were traveling. I like fate.

You give it your best shot
that's all you can do.

[the mingo]

(for The Dame on a Sunday morning. I'm waiting for the fog to clear here. I got to pull a wheel, check the rotor. I think it's not gonna be good news. Pull this. Pull that. One of these days I'm gonna pull the face off the river & make a pair of jeans out of it. Woke up this morning with a chant on my lips. I chanted while drinking my coffee. I chanted smoking a cigarette. I chanted as I painted. A chant to pull a swan right outa the pixels. Good Mornin' Dame! Ain't it a hell of a grand day ? The fog is lifting. I'm off !

[SadLuckDame]

Mingo, I love everything about this; the sun, moon and stars, the two stars, the constellation, the eclipse, the catfish making a high jump from the water, the water and it's depths, and the swan lifting wings up, as if dancing. I like that it's on a Sunday, and there's fog.
I like that it's all these things I likes so much.
You're wonderful to do such a piece to share with me.
The fog's lifting. I hope you'll be fancying a sunny day,
dear Mingo.
I will look outside.
Thank you to you.

[the mingo]

Thank you Dame. I could not be more rewarded than that you are pleased with this.

[the mingo]

O Dame, where are you?

[SadLuckDame]

Hi ya Mingo bingo. I'm here, sort of. I get these sort 15 min breaks to peek in at yas during the day. Can't wait till Thanksgiving vacation
How goes u?

[SadLuckDame]

Mingo's Swan Night

When he'd brushed on a pair
of gossamer wings,
the flight looked lovely.

He pushed toothpicks
on the canvas.

Made a trapdoor
in a con-stellated sky
wide enough
for her lines.

Below below
opened a pond.

I'd often thought,
if only there were wings.

Then an artist
mingled in acrylics,
beaded lines and oils

wiped the night's
sea salt
from his eyes.

[the mingo]

I was just wondering D, cuz you post pretty regular & I had checked
here then went over to check Jack's postings and you weren't there either. Got a little worried on ya is all.

Cool poem too.

[SadLuckDame]

I come home and go to sleep. I keep sleeping a lot lately.
I'm a bit off balance or not my usual. I don't know what soured me, but I'm sure it's just a phase, or planets alignment or maybe the meteor shower. I'm off teeter, but I seem to relax when I do get a chance to post here. I am smiling or laughing or lightening up when reading lovely studio 8, Jack's travels and your lingo.
Thanks for thinking of me, mingo.
I'll be good as new soon.
Just fluctuation in phases.

[the mingo]

Got it.