'eddie'

[creativesoul]

he was a black man, and he had a daughter- he also had the ability as a young man to touch a doorknob and know what was going to happen in the next few hours- his hands were like vessels of light- he was called in to 'fix' what i had seen coming, and the picture was bleak- he made me sit outside his house with my feet in the river- and get grounded- with the river rushing by-after awhile he would let me in the house...then he did this thing called chi quong and the energy that had been blocking various systems would be 'unblocked'.. the way he did this was pretty amazing- i would describe to him what i saw..he talked to me about energy and he would change suddenly - in animated way- to demonstate various ways of shifting the energy- he was also rather funny- liked music and good food- had a taste of history - he managed to re-arrage me in a way that i never thought possible- he talked to me about being a woman- seriously it took me more than 20 years to even have a clue as to what he was REALLY TRYING TO TELL ME he spoke of the tantras and the native americans and the sweats, he said' you see colors and light that others can not see' i seriously thought he was just 'hitting on me' and was really there to fix my family- my chldren- i had no idea that i had any intrinsic value whatsoever- as time would have it- i find myself so grateful that tears come into my eyes- he said' you will paint' you will be fine-
he has died- he was an honorable man- an still very much my friend- i had no idea what a friend he has become-he showed me how to do these things- he told me to practice healing animals- movement wakes things up inside- and the little layers of light that surround us- that is what he taught me- he found solutions where there were none- and he revealed my pain, of which i wanted nothing to do with-
he talked to me about the betrayer, and how some just were trained that way- and that there was really nothing better to do but get away from them- that i could not surrvive in that type of enviroment-my kids would be ok- but he encouraged me to 'get out' and i did- although it took quite a bit of doing to really understand 'out' and his ideas about being ok...took a little getting used to- being empathic, i thought i was just nuts..
but i adjust to situations and then i have to move away an out- re-channel my energy- like a spiritual clown - i had to go somewhere and take the mask off- get rid of the energy-most people do not understand why i live far away from people and have to- that when i go into the city- i can arrive in a place- and suddenly look at someone and say'i cannot be here'
i smell things and feel spirits - that is kind of scary to some- all except a few=
once in awhile - i relaize that eddie saved my life, and my children s life= even at great expense to my ego and ignorance-
family is like an altar where people think they have to sacrafice everyhting of value for an unseen loyality-like marriage- it can be rather toxic- the price of comfort is rather high- that merging of the souls can be very dangerous- as not all partners reveal where they are really going with their true motivations.....
sometimes they both get sick= by observing people = you can see who is thriving, and living well- while the other seems to carry the luggage..
-- aloha my sweet healer man

[SadLuckDame]

How sweet it is.

[creativesoul]

yes he is- he walks with me= many places i am grateful i do not have to go alone