Studio8 - Uniting the Arts

the people started coming with tents and all kinds of camping gear to do a work party on the bear lodge- the men wear bear suits in an outdoor arbor and heal the people- we dance around the drum and pray- and for this we are willing to be cold- work really hard and cook many meals that disappear in a few minutes- woof
by the time sunday rolls around i am already in love a few times- in and out- best looking indians for miles around- yeah baby

there are the 'rez' girls that cannot say anything nice to girls without making it all about 'spirit' and 'what they re were taught-' 'i guess when she asked me to 'cook her something bloody' and i told her i could not help her out; im a vegan bitch- was a problem for her- she wasnt too happy with tuna fish and nothing is good enough for the rez queens- it s all good when looking up to them to be an example of ceremony= but how quickly that fades- and how soon it is like 'when are you going home'?
brings back the days in the HOG FARM and all that communal living- dang- well- these girls act like everything they know is bringing them such happiness- but i know secretly that eating all day kind of sucks- with no other purpose but baking 'poke cakes' - jello in the cake mix box--GEEZ- SHE SAYS' 'I AM A FAT GIRL'
we knew- we all knew by the way you waddle- that food is your drug- but no= i am not going to take tobacco to apologize for telling you that your dog cannot piss in the house- and i have no problem= telling people they cannot bring their dogs here - AT ALL= SERIOUSLY- i had to tell one girl - ''hey in cali they pick up thier dog poop- think you all might be slackers'
i like to walk barefoot - dont like stepping in poop---
making it all about being 'more native'- WHAT THE FUCK EVER.....

CHORUS:
A
Forgive me all my anger
D
Forgive me all my faults
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There's no need to forgive me
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For thinkin' what I though

sorry I can't get that song out of my head today
a good read, thank you

So true-... Comic humor late in the night- hard to explain this deal- but I give it my wings- prayers- leaving room- for new ideas-wish I could convey the whole picture

yeah the world just does not appreciate us big picture thinkers
no seriously
what the snare and delusion for me is when I get ahead of myself as a writer, when I realize a bit of it and think I see the big picture, that way lies madness for me, I just try to keep real by writing about the "flashes" the glimpses" of the insight the "seeing the big picture" for a nanosecond then it is gone. and I am left with another bit, another piece of the big picture which I try to put in a text box here on studio eight. and hope if I have one reader somewhere on some distant planet in another galaxy who is far away enough away from it to see my bits AND pieces as see them as another fragment of the big picture.

keep up the good work little sister, I try not to envy your ability to get it down on paper,

thanks for writing

Yes, you get to me. You unfold things that please and disturb. Very good.

I VISUALISE LIKE THE PERFECT HOOKER- BUT WITH WORDS- i know- im a bit like you - where the glimpses and flashes of clarity massage and coerise me into realizing something i had never thought of before- seriously- it is like an addiction- - it is like i wrote because i was too insane to speak- the fact that you like it- well- i never really thought about -WHAT I WROTE- ONLY THAT I HAD TO- like magic- it seems to pull rabbits out of my hats- birds out of my pocket-and when you write- those little bird cages fly write open- its freeing ey boyz- love ya = salt and pepper= spaghetti and french bread= and the satire of dinner with a hidden motive-so the lil indian girl can find a spiritual equal- a mate- but her energy was too strong-ruby dakota save me

This be a difficult one here - when you're a breed the People look down on you 'cuz you ain't a skin and the Whites look down on you 'cuz you half breed trash - so you learn quick who's who & what's what ... from what I can see the "spirituality" of both red & white ain't worth a dog's damn or his time - but maybe I'm harsh - still ... the fact be the "red road" led to the loss of an entire continent and the "white man's way" led to worse - when I look at the wanna-be's, both red & white, I see that both are poor & shit stupid and are persistent in remaining that way -
nothing anyone can do about that -

I'll leave the sorting out of all this to someone that gives a damn - for myself I wish everyone was content with being what they were born as - a human being - we'd be much better off, the lot of us - I enjoyed the write, usually do - the pic you posted, you when a girl? there was a smile around your mouth trying to get loose

Yes, love that picture. She looks like the little girl in that J.D. Salinger story about bananafish.

I hope you don't mind me calling you little sister creative soul. I still call my sister "baby sister" and she hit the big 60 this year.

the big picture
I think about those first images of earth televised from the Apollo mission. That is about as big a picture as I can imagine, all of us on this planet together. Seems to me that the people of north america had a pretty decent kind of human society except for their technology. It is a shame, a sad fact to me, that the natives where out gunned.

well i get it about the halfs and woles and more thans a nd less thanz- and i get it about 'being a human' as a ART- and science- HOWEVER I FIND THAT THERE ARE SOME DNA STRAINS THAT ARE NOT GOING TO MAKE IT- it is just a fact- i mean i was crying in a field the other day about this- like what the fuck happened to us? seriously- i go to this one meeting and everyone is fresh out of jail wearing it like a badge of recovery- then the jesus people are just livid about any other format- and well even with in the tribes - uh oh- like competeion for ? a womanizing male-? heriarchy up the storyteller-and well - i have to be here- because my gifts have kind of forced it on me- like a sad child or a lover- yes- thats me in a lil smile- mona lisa in all of us- a great artist s lover is something i still aspire to- perhaps i can still pull that one off- i have been in communes and communities and whoa- i dunno- all that feminist rolls with the four marriages- why did i take that off ramp? i needed to see -- what was OVER THERE-and then oh yeah what is right here....but all in all- peaceful journeys.....

HOWEVER I FIND THAT THERE ARE SOME DNA STRAINS THAT ARE NOT GOING TO MAKE IT

Thx Jana for crackin me up here this morning so well it will stay with me all day - sorry for the rant/stomp! last post. Things get away from me from time to time. My DNA goes strained and I know I'm not going to make it - usually when that happens I know it's because I ain't been dancing enough - thx for reminding me on that ...

yeah baby- i heard a joke
'how long has it been since you stopped dancing'?
the doctor asked
i dance alone in my room = i dance in prayer= when i am not at a ceremony- i favor 'roots woman' and reggae- and let me think- oh yeah 'fred' 'im too sexy for myself' it works for me
'im too sexy for my shirt'
i carry that to 'cant touch this ' by mr hammer= lil hawaiian music- lil nigerian- and the day begins- in spite of any profound things i think i am responsable for- ha ha ah ah aha ha SPIRIT IS IN CONTROL- i recommend dancing naked round the house and jumping on the bed-pretend you are a slinky?
peace