since then

[creativesoul]

since that time when i saw the things i saw - your brown angry eyes swimming in a gray sadness- in those days before i got twisted- i thought that love and family were all that made any difference- now i think about paintings where i can show a heart in a a cage but a vagina with wings- a bullwhip in one hand and a bo peep porn star blonde on the other-
all sharing- uh ah ooo ah-i think about getting all my pubic hair ripped out with hot wax- and my facial hair- and the wicked things that i cannot seem to share-
how a person can only repair itself to a point= and then-it is time to get help-
i think about plastic surgery and massage- i think about beating the crap out of that mean selfish man you were to me.
i think that my sleep is never going to be the same- i think i put that heart in the cage- because its dangerous- it hurts- and when it gets out- it wants love-and maybe it doesnt fly- she isnt going at all then- see-
if you indicate in any way that you are insincere all that can be felt is fear
an ugly man talks of beer
i swear the day is long and the sky so clear
i wept so much
i had no crutch-
one by one they had the fun
came on home to me
feel the things
so small
so right- just paint- dont speak- it sounds feels so right
\the sun is out
fine day for love
all the words never made any difference
it is what i saw
what really happened
since then
i have had plenty of time to mend- on the beaches of kauai- that north shore just held me like a baby = taught me well- took good care of me- worked me hard
gentle medicne i cried
since then
brown eyes that fill me with a sweet
filling
like pudding
i have to not eat