Re: Brain Storm
Posted: November 24th, 2019, 5:52 pm
Holy crap, Doreen, I'm so sorry to hear that! I've always admired your devotion to physical activity & fitness, you're the last person I'd've expected to experience a cardiac episode. (Don't you just love the euphemisms?) My brother-in-law had a massive coronary a year (or was it two?) ago - and has largely recovered. A few holes in his memory of the event & its aftermath, a reluctance to undertake the kind of household construction jobs he used to - but today he's the same annoying SOB he was before it happened. (And yes, I will deny saying that about him if confronted!) He took his recovery slowly, step by step, and while my sister hovers over him, he seems to be back 98% or better. So I guess I'm saying, take that treadmill easy for now & work your way back up. You know as well as I that training works, but it can't be rushed.
And boy, do I relate to the PTSD - every time I get a little lightheaded (because of my BP meds), I wonder - is this the onset of another stroke? Every time my equilibrium goes a little off - which isn't atypical for a 70-yr old - I wonder, Is it happening again? I'm always looking over my shoulder for the next shadow. But Mr Dog & I still climb Brigham Hill most mornings (not today - sleet, freezing rain, etc), and it feels GOOD to be there when we get there. Something is going to take me out, and it won't be too awfully long before it does - but as someone very wisely just told me,
Not much I can tell you that you already haven't figure out. Just keep on keeping on, and work your way back SLOWLY. We're not in our 30s anymore!
All the best, Doreen. Seriously.
And boy, do I relate to the PTSD - every time I get a little lightheaded (because of my BP meds), I wonder - is this the onset of another stroke? Every time my equilibrium goes a little off - which isn't atypical for a 70-yr old - I wonder, Is it happening again? I'm always looking over my shoulder for the next shadow. But Mr Dog & I still climb Brigham Hill most mornings (not today - sleet, freezing rain, etc), and it feels GOOD to be there when we get there. Something is going to take me out, and it won't be too awfully long before it does - but as someone very wisely just told me,
And I'm sorry your kids have chosen this moment to become distant. My own daughter is also thousands of miles away, and I fear since I'm out of sight, I'm also out of mind. Beyond the obligatory "OMG, are you all right??", I haven't heard much from her. I wonder if denial of our mortality might be making them reluctant to reach out...?
Not much I can tell you that you already haven't figure out. Just keep on keeping on, and work your way back SLOWLY. We're not in our 30s anymore!
All the best, Doreen. Seriously.