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Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 20th, 2018, 3:29 am
by hester prynne
Always there jam,
I am your sometimes
peanut butter, in,
again, after spans
Of life lessons,
oh how they
Recur,
when unprocessed.
And you came back again
After 17 years,
To teach me the
Difference, between
fear, and grief,
Grief for the bargain made
For me
at birth,
That I, we, all of us
die,
And have to leave
This beautiful ride on
Procreation wings we fly.
The children,
the trees,
the birds
the streams,
all of you,
I must leave forever.
I am not afraid,
but oh
I will miss it so,
When I have to go,
from
this glorious burst of
Being.

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 20th, 2018, 6:40 pm
by mnaz
I did the go Go GO last nite.
After so long it was my first,
and what followed? a burst.
the return of hest.
(hope you're okay.)

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 20th, 2018, 11:15 pm
by judih
theda power
the voice of forever
major minor joy

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 25th, 2018, 12:54 pm
by saw
time rambles with us
or without
we plunge into what
seems right
at any given moment
I'm sure we believed
it was a good idea that night
that day
there are no treasure maps
with "You are here"...
nor RED X's in the center
it's more like planning
collides with real life
the same as stars collide
with space junk
we like to believe we have free will
and of course we have some autonomy
but the random nature
of the universe will not be denied
so lap up the jam off the table
don't waste a drop of strawberry moments
grape stains on the chin
get your tongue down there fool
taste empathy, taste the collective
consciousness, feel
the biorhythms of the circle
love like a motherfucker
be kind
wish good things for your neighbors
fly across the milky way
like a rabid dot across the ocean
be all you can be
be humble

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 25th, 2018, 2:22 pm
by stilltrucking
time to go
but
jam enough
maintain progeny
the unbroken chain that sustains existence
walking talking typing free rolling text from god knows where we are only aware so far and beyond fear and grief and the funeral-even horizon is this peanut butter jam strawberry perpetual !!!!!!!!!

missing the glorious burst of being human, wondering if there is another burst of being after the previous one ends with a bang or a whimper.

I was born to go, but not yet, I owe my soul to studio8™ :wink:

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 25th, 2018, 8:53 pm
by tinkerjack
a jam a method to a madness
username inspired by a sister and a poet
even if I hardly got it,
I studied on her work for years
and got what I could get
about life, women, children
how fortunate a brother I am

I was missing you and hoping the
circle unbroken

The Freudian Muse

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 26th, 2018, 10:56 am
by saw
leftover lasagna for breakfast
quick and easy for a block-headed morning
before the caffeine has its say
before the sun temptingly shows its face
another foray into enlightenment
that existential war each time the eyes open
and the brain realizes, DAMN ...I'm still alive
so you roll back and forth in the sheets
to confirm this is still mother earth, and you
really are going to need a strategy for getting out of bed
and then you think about your children, and grand
if ya got 'em, and that gives a little jolt
to the torso, and the toes are saying yes, I can
do this....hit the floor for one more
go-around, one more day finding a new way
C'mon creativity...wake up inspiration...pinch me
god....if you're really there somewhere
OK OK...but I gotta tell ya
some mornings really are that dramatic
and Billy Shakespeare is just a drug peddler
with little concern for language, and it's all on you baby
to find the right words...the words that make a man try
harder....enough.....see the silver linings
oh hell yeah !....they're there alright
you just need enough coffee to part the clouds

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 26th, 2018, 3:05 pm
by sasha
another cold gray damp day
foggy
oughta take the camera for a drive
but I'd rather write
gave birth yesterday
to a story that impregnated me
months ago
but a first draft
is just the 2x4 frame
now it's time for the sheetrock
time to edit
to trim and fix
an adverb here
a metaphor there
and that sentence just doesn't flow
still missing something
pathos?
motivation?...
all part of the craft
like a carpenter
planing down a sticky door
or my dad
(rest his soul)
fixing a lawn mower engine
or a programmer
chasing down
an elusive bug
first drafts are just that
now the work begins.....

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 27th, 2018, 8:52 am
by saw
tossed and turned
like leaves in the backyard
that fly all day long past my windows
just looking to land somewhere
maybe that's why when something
isn't settled, makes you lose a little sleep
they say, it's up in the air....
I remember some of the dreams
they were all versions of frustration
wrong people in wrong situations
nonsensical dialogue, the uprooting
of my comfort zones, like pulling up
the old tomato stalks in the raised beds
and well, maybe my bed was raised last night,
or maybe I was hovering above it, but
woke up groggy and confused, and truth is
didn't get enough sleep to wake up from anything

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 27th, 2018, 3:59 pm
by stilltrucking
not that I am literate
but I slept like Proust last night
The hour when an invalid, who has been obliged to start on a journey and to sleep in a strange hotel, awakens in a moment of illness and sees with glad relief a streak of daylight shewing under his bedroom door.
Oh, joy of joys! it is morning. The servants will be about in a minute: he can ring, and some one will come to look after him. The thought of being made comfortable gives him strength to endure his pain. He is certain he heard footsteps: they come nearer, and then die away. The ray of light beneath his door is extinguished. It is midnight; some one has turned out the gas; the last servant has gone to bed, and he must lie all night in agony with no one to bring him any help. https://www.gutenberg.org/files/7178/7178-h/7178-h.htm
I go to sleep stoned,
wake up in a fog, after two hours of nicotine and coffee, I stare into a bowl of oatmeal and lose.

So I pick up a pipe and begin again.
maybe tomorrow I will do better
today is all I got
going to live it and dig it

thanks for writing
reading you does me good 8)

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 28th, 2018, 8:33 am
by saw
delightful response truck
enjoyed the musings of another old man
gotta say we must have paid enough dues by now
my neighborhood of Mayfield gives a discount
to senior citizens when it comes to dues
and I've started to look for some of the financial incentives
for raggedy old men, may as well cash in a little
for staying alive this long...went into T-Mobile
the other day to get my cell phone working again
and the nice African-American women said,
you're not a vet are you ?....i assumed i was too
raggedy looking to possibly have been in the armed forces
and I replied, Yeah....why ?....and she said why aren't you
getting all the benefits you deserve...and I sez,,,,Didn't know
So dig this,,,,they cut my bill in half....gave me a brand new
Samsung tablet, I now have unlimited data and free Netflix
WTF....all that for getting high on a ship for 4 years
now that's something to jam about....so now I'm on the prowl
for veterans and old men advantages...if only I could cut a deal
with someone to take away these aches and pains and
restore my memory

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 28th, 2018, 11:43 am
by sasha
funny
(not the ha ha kind)
I'm getting up there in years
seventy not too far ahead
but I don't feel old
not yet
oh sure, the machine's getting a little worn
my hips and hands
a little arthritic
can't see for shit
without my specs
and it can take forever to pee
(which I do a couple times a night)
but a day hardly goes by
that I don't laugh with delight at my freedom
that I don't climb brigham hill
that I don't notice a pretty girl
(though semi-centarians are "girls" to me...)
and my colon still keeps time
like a cesium-ion clock
yeah
the machine's getting a little worn
but it still works
mostly
and the spark within
is still there

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 28th, 2018, 1:08 pm
by silent woman
funny how many of the best of all long-haul truckers are vets
grateful for the ones I drove sleeper team with
you could lay back there in that coffin-like sleeper compartment and go to sleep

let's make a deal my favorite show
I always wanted to dress up like a giant carrot and compete on it,
I seek the breaks of the blessings of longevity, also the writers who shed grace on my way.
felt like...I was frozen in ice, and waiting/reading or writing for the sun to thaw me out

oi :!: I can hardly control the moving cursor, my fingers one thought in back of my mind

old age ain't so bad, so long as I can do what I want to, but I have made allowances for certain life changes.
for example, I used to be circumcised, or I used to have a penis.

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 29th, 2018, 9:31 am
by saw
many years ago
I passed an elderly black man on the sidewalk
and I said, How's it going ?
he replied,' I'm just trying to grow old gracefully
I had no idea what he meant at 28 years old
but now I do....and I like to kid around about aging
but it ain't so bad....was remodeling this space under the basement steps
put in a new closet which involved a sub-floor and carpeting and baseboards
and well...I could get down ok,,,,but the getting up was tricky
but persistence won out in the end...a friend is going to store some boxes there
and I had a bit of a deadline...and so...it's good to know I can still jam a little
when push comes to shove....and I do miss the smell of sawdust
and swinging my wooden handle hammer that I've held a gazillion times
the carpenter jam....wood butcher extraordinaire....
remember the mantra....Measure Twice...Cut Once

Re: perpetual jam!!!!!!!!!

Posted: November 29th, 2018, 11:40 am
by tinkerjack
the mantra of jam
my bucket list for today
breathing
if I can't breed at least I can still breathe
even if lust gnaws me still
there is a lot to said for the joys of breathing
To die gracefully is a good death
'In life, love gnawed my skin
To this white bone;
What love did then, love does now:
Gnaws me through.'
the Freudian muse